went out for dinner at 130 wid ym, darl, breastfren, may, may's bf and sookai.
many sorrys nuren; though it's still nt the last dinner wif u,
still kinda indebt to u. sorrys
i promise to make it up to u yeah?

true, may aint dat scary after all
but she still gives me creeps wif her 'cool' look.
i mean, yeah, the 'cool' look on her face is like real scary.
stern, fiery kinda look, yep, u get wad i mean
browsed through her friendster once, totally impressed by the CKJ top, A|X belt and A|X flops pic
yeah, got a real LIVE closer look today
woo~ nt sure whether is it the A|X belt in the pic, but it's damn cool
jus three words: [colour=red]SHE'S SIMPLY LOADED[/colour]

this weird feeling kept lingering onto me since morning; bad omen i suppose
it din turn out to be the best day i've ever had, instead one of the worst
dat yucky, sarky feeling
mayb it's the dependence; it makes me so wana stick around
but why so nt..
is it sumthing bad? tsk tsk..
dat heart-warming trusty shoulder is soon gonna be gone for good
i guess dat's wad's been bothering me these days
time for me to cool dwn and tink properly; whether is dis gonna go anywhere, i'm begining to doubt it

mayb u don seem to realise by nw, but i'm the kind of person who likes company, friends, hanging out wif loads of pple being around
it gives me the sense of security, nt the kinda of loner, there's-no-one-u-can-turn-to feeling
i'm always like dat, since young til nw, and it will remain like dat throughout my whole lyfe;
i hate doing things alone, and dat's me
detesting being left out,
try dat on me and i'll start to prepare for the worst
and u're starting to make me feel dat way
our directions are so different; we're so MOON-AND-EARTH
i'm like a nighty, and there u are worn-out by the time the moon cums out
u cant make out the time dat i'm willing to spare out
i cant help to tink dat i'm jus bad girl who brings ur mom's boy astray
as u've said, u've been going hme late at night and getting shyt frm ur moma every single day
trust me, i understand it's difficut for u too
but i jus cant stand it animore..

darl says i cant be selfish
so let it be, the lesser time together and u can expect me to drift to nowhere
seriously, i'm nt the kind of person dat can tolerate dis kind of distance
wondering if u would be able to bear the consequences after all this rubbish
i'm doubting it over and over again..
parting may do us both good, u'll be able to box out time for ur studies and me, for my frens i've been neglecting all these while

to speak of the truth, u've nvr reali ask wad i wanted;
likewise, i've nvr knew of wad u wanted out of all of these..
u've nvr made me felt as though i'm wanted, u're taking all these in as though i was meant to be
telling u once and for all, i'm nt jus dat tom, dick or harry who cums into ur life; making it looking though it has been through a whole load of crap;
leaving a piece of memory about me being the so called THE BAD GIRL WHO LED HIM ASTRAY kind of thing

browsing through bloggies, it reali pangs me in the head.
anithing can reali happen anitime and to everione, not everyone can enjoy the bliss of happiness
hits me real hard in the head, making me tink if i've been taking things for granted..
especially Foong Ling's blogg, it nvr fails to make my eyes swell wif tears.
after reading this two particular posts, OMGosh; tears are reali flowing dwn



it's much more easy to bo said than done, girl



and this, is wad i'm expriencing and going through dis very moment
sighs..

nonetheless, telling myself everything will turn out fine in the end
it's jus dis period of time, nt as though forever

tsk tsk tsk,
i'm crying myself to bed,
and for gwad sake, Elliot Yamin's Wait for You randomly shuffled into me playlist..
i miss u so much.. yet, i dread the sight of seeing u
i'm feeling so so so lousy, so helpless and everithing, instead, my heart sumwhat felt light and empty
the feeling i cant describe why

MEIMEI; JIEJIE <33



act yi ge shuai er yi
bleahs







(:


bored, Bugis NLB surfing..
hahas.
partially waiting for jeffrey and weiyi to knock off, and oso Mr Siah Ming Zhe to cum dwn..
dat asshole, din even confirm if he's cuming dwn or nt.
go wad Jurong Sport Council swimming wif karen..
lols
=P

woke up bright and earli dis morning..
meet ym under my blk at 10, went dwn FarEast wif jinghao buy their friend's stupid Adidas jacket
super cheap!!
65bucks for the guy's
nt too bad looking too..
hahas

wooo~
i'm actually wanted back at uzu;
wadeva, after all dat has happened, leslie nw claims dat he believes dat i wont steal the money
i was like "WAD THE FUCK?"
of cos u would say dat i'm innocent after claiming the money back frm me
duh~
if it's werent for my "DAILY ALLOWANCE" and jeffrey,
i won be even tinking of going back again.
hahas
wadeva..
im jus so crappy today.
(:

Easy - Paula Deanda
Yeah
Yeah
Paula
Danger

I might be your young girl but I know how to have fun
I got them boys chasing me trying to make me the one
When I'm out shopping it's like having a gun
Whatever I wanna get, got them boys caught up

I know I'm a hot hot shorty
But you gotta slow down (slow down)
You don't know me (don't know me)
If you in a hot hot hurry
You gotta go now (go now), back up off me (off me)

Ooh, I got them going crazy you see
Uh ooh, head over heels for me ooh
Uh ooh, weak in the knees for me boy
Uh ooh, 'cause you are so damn easy
'Cause you are so damn easy
'Cause you are so damn easy

Ooh, I'm much rather than you think that I act like you know
Just because I'm a teen it don't mean that I'm slow
I think you're a cutie boy, but you're turning me off
Sometimes you gotta play hard to get and then it's on

I know I'm a hot hot shorty
But you gotta slow down
You don't know me
If you in a hot hot hurry
You gotta go now, back up off me

Ooh, I got them going crazy you see
Uh ooh, head over heels for me ooh
Uh ooh, weak in the knees for me boy
Uh ooh, 'cause you are so damn easy
'Cause you are so damn easy
'Cause you are so damn easy

One Take
Weezy, baby tonight's the night
And them girls all on me like white on rice
And I get them to the crib late two or one
I'm already high, now you don't want
Take a jet into the sunset, you won't come
Or sit in my Phantom but you won't go
Baby, I can take you to and from
How you slipped your little wrist until you're blue and numb
Um, you're dealin' with a boss lil mama
Young Wayne, Tony Montana
If I were you, I'd tell your homies I holla
If your man ain't me, why bother
I go by the name Carter, I got more plaques than tartar
I've been shaking up them charts on the charter
Number one spot, Lil' Wayne and Paula

Ooh, I got them going crazy you see
Uh ooh, head over heels for me ooh
Uh ooh, weak in the knees for me boy
Uh ooh, 'cause you are so damn easy

Uh ooh, I got them going crazy you see
Uh ooh, head over heels for me ooh
Uh ooh, weak in the knees for me boy
Uh ooh, 'cause you are so damn easy (no no no no no)
'Cause you are so damn easy
'Cause you are so damn easy

Don't be so damn easy
Don't be so damn easy

MY CUTIE BOY!
(:(:
hearts him loads

Listen - Beyonce
Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....

Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out, for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....

Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete

Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...

sian ar!!
hahas
it's raining meows and woofs outside nw.
cant even go hme can
lols

duno tmr wanna skate or nt.
tsk tsk tsk
nicole's last second tyme to go skate liao
hahas

today went out wif jeffrey, nicole, hazel, kelvin and of cos, alfredaMEIMEI
hahas
so fun
toking abt the Tiger airways, and loads of funnie stuff
laughing until all our jaws hurts like hell

yea, fun dae huh..
=P

P.S: kelvin, don feel dwn ler worh
i'll always be by ur side derh
stand by u, dat's wad i'll do!
jiayous
you qin wan shui!

went to the annual hockey bbq on sat
hahs, had so much fun there

took a cab frm je wif akira and huiwen
while marcus, jackson, nicole and joewe took one, hanns, his gf and zhe took another one
they booked a function room for everithing,
tian ar, so re nao!
loads of pple were there ler, cs we were kinda late
hahahs
some of them were playing NHL, bowling, boxing and of cos eating
=P
the mee siam and nasi lemak was nt bad.
aiya, everithing there is nice bah, except for the veggie salad and the fruit punch which zhe claims dat it sarks so much dat i don even dare to try it.

cos the function had to be closed earli,
we moved all of our stuff to chris's house
her condo is sooo nice!
jus the swimming pool is luxury enough
ahhh, imagine staying there.
*chuckles*

went up to chris's house, everione was alreadi busy doing sumthing
watching hockey matches, playing dota, playing dat WIIsports game thing
LMAO.
playd wif zhe a game of bowling.
wakakas
taught me how to cheat to strike
lols
so easi!
huiwen still couldn't get it
ahahs, like papa like daughter.
wohohoho.
in the end still lost to zhe.
argh!
nxt tyme shall try again
=P

ben lai suppose to go pubbing wif huiwen,akira, krystina and guohuiat handl bar derh
but in the end we dragged til quite late den me quite seh liao, den din go lorh
left chris's house at 2+
cos me waiting for joewe marh, go dwn je together
huiwen left togeer too.
jackson suppose to cum wif us oso, but before he left, saw zhe, akira playig NHL in chris's room
gian, din wan to leave ler
eugene sent huiwen hme first, den me.
luckily joewe noe the exact place i'm staying
puhh~ if nt i sure cannot tong until eugene drives to my plce derh
thanks eugeneso much for ride hme!
(:

reali enjoyed myself thoroughly dat day
ohohos

P.S: foong ling, don be so zi bei yah?
to us, u're so much betta than her
she should be the one feeling inferior
lols.
cheer up kays?
don bother bout them ler
(:


disappointment cums yet after another disappointment
it's nvr gonna end until.....

i'm so disappointed in u. no words can even describe the utter disappointment dat overwhelmed me.. guess dis is when i noe dat i've totally given up on u. moving on, dat's wad i'll do. no point stopping my whole wonderfully fuck'd up lyfe for u. NO, i won even dream of wanting u back. u knew how much i needed u to be there, but u chose to stand in the shadows, turning ur back on me. but i don nid u back animore. THIS IS THE END OF EVERYTHING

HAPPIE BDAY ALFREDA*meimei!
<33 u loads
(:

jj should be in camp by nw bah.
hahs, imagine him bald.. wooo~ *chuckles*
so mean of me!

there's TOPSHOP sale dis cuming sat!
meifen told me so.
lols
mmayb she can get a 30% discount
urgh!
i so wanted dat red belt and dat white wallet nw. mayb buy a few tank tops bah.. see how it goes by den.
=P
i'm so on a so hoo on a shoooppping spreeeeee these days
shopping is like so addictive.
spolit habit of mine;
like they always say, it onli tkes 3mins to pick up sumthing bad, 3 yrs to kick away dat
oh well in these going 3 yrs, i've beta be well financially prepared
hurhurrr..

i'm loving my fuck'd up; messed lyfe so much. thnks to thse wonderfully awesome bastards and bytches who made it turn out so fine.
(:

You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side
you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know i wont give in
no i wont give in.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through.

So far away i wish you were here
before it's too late this could all disapear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side i will fight
and defend i'll fight and defend yeah yeah.

Hear me when i say, when i say
i believe nothings gonna change,
nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is ment to be
will work out perfectly yeah yeah yeah yeah
lalalalalalala...

sighs.
feeling so vexed and troubled
ever since lixinn and melvin went overseas, i've been cutting dwn on my late nites ler
how long have i seen them both
awww.. misses them much

everiday is so boring.
day and day passes me by without me even realising how quick it is
sighs...

weiyi;
ur SHAOYUdoesnt een fanc me
we're jus fwens, phu-lease
doesnt mean dat he replied to my msg and nt to urs, he likes mehow stupid of u.

CUTTING IS FUN
BLEEDING IS COOL

work!
i'm working everiday dis week!
whees~
gonna be so rich for the nxt month

its plainly easi money.stand there do nth, msn-ing; check emails; view friendster; blog, tadah! at the end of everi month, i get my pay.
voolah!
ain't dis job easi?
there's extra money for u to earn, ice cream for u to eat, com for u to use..
wad more can u ask for?
there's even transport fee for u to claim if u work nite shift.

during work time i get to slack round, if nt go shopping
wakakas.
shopping is one of greatet hobby these daes.
i'm buying thing frm my endless shopping list
it has been less than a week since my payday but i've spent on :
1. black skinny jean
2. red adidas bag
3. white bling bling belt
4. little miss curious shirt
5. fake eyelashes
6. new earrings
7. black cardigan
8. red octopus handphone thingy
9. spiderman robot bear handphone thingy

it's nt much. cos my pay 's so little.
last month i've onli worked for 6 days
for 6days of pay,to be abe to buy so much stuff, im totally impressed
i wan dat TOPSHOP wallet
it's nt totally nice, but i'm so into white wallets..
lmao; but i wont say no to a gucci; LV or GUESS wallet
it's nt jus the brand, it's whether i like it or nt.
guess i'm still nt over wif my OUTFITTER GIRL wallet
hahs.
the coin section is like so awesome
u open it up and it look like a miniature box fixed to ur wallet
=P

tian ar.
javier such a nice guy, he bought his gf a W880i
swweeets~
shi xin fu derh nor the gf

why? but why?
why is W880i so popular amongst couples?
dis is the third coupe dat's using W880i
sian diao~

i'm so borreddd.
ZzzZz..
gonna fall aslp soon ler!
*yawns

oh man. i'm back at work again..
sighs
still cant figure out where the hell dat darn 50bucks ran away to.
i tink it's my fault, but i cant seem to recall me putting into the bag 50bucks lesser
wadeva;
it's gone so why the brain brooding over it?
=P

went out darling ytd to bu my pants
lols.
bugis street wasnt even opened yet
hahas;
everithing, everi shop there is like so dead
not the lively, squeezy, crowded bugis street like before..
duno whether it's me or wad; but trust me, walking along dwn the streets aint comfortable.
it's like there dis very weird, empty feeling tingling in the air.
or is it spooky i should say?

HAHS!
eeren, dat fcuker, went tiong to cut his hair wif jj companion
NT FAIR!
lmao
jj is jus simply super adorable in his helmet, i mus say
wakakas..

after eeren finish cutting his hair,
they came dwn je meet us
*stunnts*
nahs, nt excatly stunnted bah, mayb it's like er.. i dunno wad to describe the feeling bah
it's nt like zhe and jackson came all the way dwn to esplanade
dat's like gan dong?
cos it's nt like jackson wo won kpkb after cum a long way ler in the end we had to leave the place
earli cos our bus leaving.
sighs.
feel so bad; making them cum and den leave them in lurch
back ytd, it was kinda gud feeling to noe dat ur fwen heard dat ure about to be pangseh-ed, came dwn to accompany u.
they are are those darls i'm so gald i met up up
LOVE U DARLS SO VERY MUCH!
muacks.

yays!
we played ddr and para.
LMAO
we're luaghin like hell all the way
born maniacs =P

woo~ yah yah
guess who i saw ytd?
DICKSON LAU
hahas. so happie to him again
he's still the same;
tapled pants, slipped-on shoes, piercing ji dua tu, bleached spikey hair
omg, still at gud looking
lols
he's foreva walking as though he's in a rush to nowhere
dat's one part of him i guessdat will nvr change bah
little mr hurry
hahas.
sads, he's no longer working at S&K ler. tsk tsk tsk.
gonna miss him so badly.
sighs..
no one help me buy my pants ler..
*cries out*
lmao, he actually rmbed to call me.
but wad the hell was he tinking sia; when he actually called me when he was on acad and other tyme calling while he doing his super big business at hme
he's jus so cute.
oh my tian, everione is begining to appear cute to me
hahs~

i'm so nt gonna gif up my hockey jus like dat
leaving at 8.30pm sharp is wad i will do.
i'm nt caring whether lynn or leslie is gonna stop me
i'm gud enough to cum to work todae, totally different frm wad i tod lynn ytd

i miss melissa and her crappiness,
she and her TEA aka cha
lols.

i miss zhe,
cos reali long tyme nvr see him ler

anw, i jus mis loads of pple
ahahas
wrkin lyfe sucks
i wan my carefree sch lyfe back
missin all those crap in sch lyfe so much.
vball and the other gals.
sighs...

my life nw is filled with work; rest and entertaintment
totally no time for other stuff ler.
lols

the craving for new clothes; bags; shoes; toys; electronic gadgets are far too much for my saving to cope with
plus, there' still recreational activities like skating; going for movies and daily expenses are increasing the already burnt hole in my pocket

i wanna buy my tapled pants
argh!
the stupid pay has yet to cum
leslie said it's due on the 5th.
sighs.
luckily i'm at hf; tke ler jiu can go put bank ler
lmao

sighs. waiting forshou ren to cum pei me tok tok.