many sorrys nuren; though it's still nt the last dinner wif u,
still kinda indebt to u. sorrys
i promise to make it up to u yeah?
true, may aint dat scary after all
but she still gives me creeps wif her 'cool' look.
i mean, yeah, the 'cool' look on her face is like real scary.
stern, fiery kinda look, yep, u get wad i mean
browsed through her friendster once, totally impressed by the CKJ top, A|X belt and A|X flops pic
yeah, got a real LIVE closer look today
woo~ nt sure whether is it the A|X belt in the pic, but it's damn cool
jus three words: [colour=red]SHE'S SIMPLY LOADED[/colour]
this weird feeling kept lingering onto me since morning; bad omen i suppose
it din turn out to be the best day i've ever had, instead one of the worst
dat yucky, sarky feeling
mayb it's the dependence; it makes me so wana stick around
but why so nt..
is it sumthing bad? tsk tsk..
dat heart-warming trusty shoulder is soon gonna be gone for good
i guess dat's wad's been bothering me these days
time for me to cool dwn and tink properly; whether is dis gonna go anywhere, i'm begining to doubt it
mayb u don seem to realise by nw, but i'm the kind of person who likes company, friends, hanging out wif loads of pple being around
it gives me the sense of security, nt the kinda of loner, there's-no-one-u-can-turn-to feeling
i'm always like dat, since young til nw, and it will remain like dat throughout my whole lyfe;
i hate doing things alone, and dat's me
detesting being left out,
try dat on me and i'll start to prepare for the worst
and u're starting to make me feel dat way
our directions are so different; we're so MOON-AND-EARTH
i'm like a nighty, and there u are worn-out by the time the moon cums out
u cant make out the time dat i'm willing to spare out
i cant help to tink dat i'm jus bad girl who brings ur mom's boy astray
as u've said, u've been going hme late at night and getting shyt frm ur moma every single day
trust me, i understand it's difficut for u too
but i jus cant stand it animore..
darl says i cant be selfish
so let it be, the lesser time together and u can expect me to drift to nowhere
seriously, i'm nt the kind of person dat can tolerate dis kind of distance
wondering if u would be able to bear the consequences after all this rubbish
i'm doubting it over and over again..
parting may do us both good, u'll be able to box out time for ur studies and me, for my frens i've been neglecting all these while
to speak of the truth, u've nvr reali ask wad i wanted;
likewise, i've nvr knew of wad u wanted out of all of these..
u've nvr made me felt as though i'm wanted, u're taking all these in as though i was meant to be
telling u once and for all, i'm nt jus dat tom, dick or harry who cums into ur life; making it looking though it has been through a whole load of crap;
leaving a piece of memory about me being the so called THE BAD GIRL WHO LED HIM ASTRAY kind of thing
browsing through bloggies, it reali pangs me in the head.
anithing can reali happen anitime and to everione, not everyone can enjoy the bliss of happiness
hits me real hard in the head, making me tink if i've been taking things for granted..
especially Foong Ling's blogg, it nvr fails to make my eyes swell wif tears.
after reading this two particular posts, OMGosh; tears are reali flowing dwn
it's much more easy to bo said than done, girl
and this, is wad i'm expriencing and going through dis very moment
sighs..
nonetheless, telling myself everything will turn out fine in the end
it's jus dis period of time, nt as though forever
tsk tsk tsk,
i'm crying myself to bed,
and for gwad sake, Elliot Yamin's Wait for You randomly shuffled into me playlist..
i miss u so much.. yet, i dread the sight of seeing u
i'm feeling so so so lousy, so helpless and everithing, instead, my heart sumwhat felt light and empty
the feeling i cant describe why