She might be growing increasingly frustrated at his evasiveness about the future hardening into a refusal to talk about at all. But she still could not bring herself to walk away, to step bravely out into a life without him for the simple reason that such a life seemed too bleak and pointless even to contemplate.
She was woken by a sharp slap.
IT was hard because she tried and had, gambled, lost, and not yet recovered her equilibrium. It was hard because, as time went on and her broken heart began to heck, she couldn't help asking herself if he was keep of a true and great love in her life and more a waste of space, and this a gnawing regret.
There was something and him that called to her, something about individuality, about certainty, about making something of what was on offer, however odd.
However hard, she is woken by the hard slap and decided to force herself on. For it was certain he wants her out of his life forever, and never on the list anymore. She is going to push herself on, finally.
P/S: Thank you for striking and blocking her on every possible connection, in every means, pushing her to death sentence.
Thursday, November 26
Wednesday, November 25
Imma Sagittarius Woman
A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely covered it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step. She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy. She will not get up set easily.
Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She is a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never try to cause troubles for anyone.
She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something so pleasing at the same time. Example she may say "I wish you could make more money, so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you should get up set or love her more.
She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. If
she try to over powered you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.
She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear she says " Guess what I
will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love life as another funny story.
She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths, good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of let her borrow money, think again.
She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting marry and lost her freedom and so on and on. A jolly woman who loves sports. She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. She has more guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care about rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbor will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself , so you should not bother what people think.
Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurts from love, but
never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will
admire you.
How true.
Check ur own horoscope here!
Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She is a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never try to cause troubles for anyone.
She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something so pleasing at the same time. Example she may say "I wish you could make more money, so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you should get up set or love her more.
She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. If
she try to over powered you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.
She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear she says " Guess what I
will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love life as another funny story.
She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths, good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of let her borrow money, think again.
She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting marry and lost her freedom and so on and on. A jolly woman who loves sports. She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. She has more guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care about rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbor will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself , so you should not bother what people think.
Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurts from love, but
never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will
admire you.
How true.
Check ur own horoscope here!
Saturday, November 21
I QUIT, NOW!
The white angel in me shld shutthefuckup, stop finding reasons for him anymore cos obviously every fucking shit i do is not appreciated. I shld quit trying anymore, and wake up from denial.
Imma such a fucktard to remake the card, squeeze on bus to and fro getting the bloody heavy cake hme when i jus knew nobody would eat it.
Fuck. I give up, i give up!
P/S: On hiatus, won't be blogging for long. K thanks, fuck off and bye.
Imma such a fucktard to remake the card, squeeze on bus to and fro getting the bloody heavy cake hme when i jus knew nobody would eat it.
Fuck. I give up, i give up!
P/S: On hiatus, won't be blogging for long. K thanks, fuck off and bye.
Friday, November 20
Thursday, November 19
2012
what do you do,
when the one thing you live for leaves you?
I think i'm jinxed. I thought i wouldn't be so suay to bump into her for the third time, i avoided looking at everyone the moment i stepped onto Dover's platform. Still, i bumped into her at PS! Can someone explain this paranormal phenomenon! Not only i feel like stalker, she jus mysteriously pops out form some random place. Mayb i'm really jinxed with the 'See-Shuhui-Everywhere-You-Go' kind of black magic :\
Watched 2012 with ah yang ytd. Tho i did promised to watch it on the 20th, but it seems like the promise ain't valid anymore. Prolly there's someone else replacing me anyway. And, no one is going to watch is with me other than ah yang.
3 out of 5. Not as good as i expected, yang thought the movie was good tho.
Definitely not the kind of movie bo and weiyi shld watch, too much english throughout even i was bored at the front part. The movie was focused on just two parts,
#1 how self-centered and selfish the rich were,
#2 the 'wow' on the animations on the effects and damages done during the catastrophe.
The number TWENTY-EIGHT keep coming out throughout. Yang definitely had a good time nudging me, pweets ):
I thought Amanda Peet(Kate Curtis) was quite pretty in the show and Johann Urb(Sasha) was so cute! (:
i wish my daughter would be like her.
Heartbreaks are not cheap to mend. I've been spending money like it's water ever since 27th September ): and i have to spend more when i'm recuperating from the major thing. Shingz.
AND! That day i went dwn to close my accounts, the person who served me is called SHERYL CHONG. KNNCCB. Double combo. Shuhui adding onto dickass.
Tuesday, November 17
I promise you I'll be right here, Baby
technically, they are my pets.
Shuffling on ipod, 原谅我 and 越愛越難過 came on. Funnily, these are the two songs that i forced him to sing and unspoken it became his 主打歌. They brings back appletons of memories over these months, sorrow and joy. Touchy, but it has come down to jus memories. Things that bore the number twenty-eight on has been sensitive to me since godknwswhen, like 5128. Trivial details like this can really get me going. And i finally saw the 'couple ring that bore their ic nos.', she's been wearing it alright ): why i nvr get anything like that before, and worse, we'd nvr taken any photos tog at all and it makes me feel more like a failure. fuck.
Lost, i totally lost. I placed my trust on the wrong person, i heed the wrong advice, i let my weakness took control of my emotions, i made the wrong decision and my life is in a dope mess. Decisions after decisions i have to make, it's gradually killing me inadequately. The most unforgivable me, i maligned the wrong the person. I shld have believed him, but i didn't.
My hatred for that dickass has unknowingly grown so strong that i feel like shoving donkey balls dwn his throat. Being androgynous doesn't give u rights to tell different things to different pple, u two-faced pig.
True enough, it is the THIRD time. Jus blame it on me letting my weak spot taking me over and letting u rub salt on it.
No, i won't say i'm grateful for the friendship cos i knw i am regretting knowing u this very moment. U and ur messed up life has nth to do with me at first, but gradually became part of me and i feel a sense of responsibility caring for u as a friend in a form gratitude 'being there for me when i need it'.
Whatever fucked up reasons u had, i had enough. One day u can hurl and run me dwn like nobody's business. Then immediately the day after, 'i miss you' flashed on my phone. WHATTHEFUCK? I hope ur pea-sized dick drop off and ur balls rot. I'm crude with my words, hate me for all i give a damn.
jus fuck off as far
BBDC ltr on with hao. Cheesy leh! I register for riding and driving with elder bro Looi, now i'm closing both accounts with younger bro Looi. See, my life jus evolves ard the Loois. Imma both shingz and boomz.
P/S: SHUHUI!! I wan Burberry bag and Kate Spade wallet too! U and Long ge shld buy me a bday pressie u knw! Hehe.
Saturday, November 14
Friday, November 13
Still counting,
Exactly 1 week to bo's bday,
Exactly 1 months to my bday.
Yes, i'm still counting. I still want my bday to be celebrated with bo. Haha. silly silly, wishful thought.
Exactly 1 months to my bday.
Yes, i'm still counting. I still want my bday to be celebrated with bo. Haha. silly silly, wishful thought.
bad romance
Had a uber tiring day ytd. Had to wait for yang at SP's bustop for half an hr. And still not beliving my suay luck, i bumped into shuhui again. Even i feel like a stalker without trying at all.
Rocky's Pizza at Sunsetway then Holland V for Frolick! (: i love my best friend!
Today's Friday 13th, definately not working out for me.
Tuesday, November 10
we die, hard
Caught Jennifer's Body with weiyi ytd.
Megan Fox was steaming hot throughout, not mentioning gross at parts. Wasn't as great as i expected, the end sucked. Why shld Megan Fox be murdered and Amanda Seyfried escapes from the mental institute! I don't like it when Megan Fox died. I'm so jealous of pple with pretty long hair! Why can't my hair grow as fast my nails! Digged ):
I've been aching everywhere for the past few days. Whenever i'm starting to fall into deep slp, i can feel the aches from my back. Thus, i haven't been slping well resulting me waking up at weird times surfing the net. Apart from that, i'll be busy for these few days. I'm so zoonked.
I realised alot of the pple ard me have no idea wad Astigmatism is. Either that, they do not watch the Li Hom advert on Acvue's contact lenses correcting astigmatism.
astigmatism: a refractive error of the eye in which parallel rays of light from an external source do not converge on a single focal point on the retina.
Megan Fox was steaming hot throughout, not mentioning gross at parts. Wasn't as great as i expected, the end sucked. Why shld Megan Fox be murdered and Amanda Seyfried escapes from the mental institute! I don't like it when Megan Fox died. I'm so jealous of pple with pretty long hair! Why can't my hair grow as fast my nails! Digged ):
I've been aching everywhere for the past few days. Whenever i'm starting to fall into deep slp, i can feel the aches from my back. Thus, i haven't been slping well resulting me waking up at weird times surfing the net. Apart from that, i'll be busy for these few days. I'm so zoonked.
I realised alot of the pple ard me have no idea wad Astigmatism is. Either that, they do not watch the Li Hom advert on Acvue's contact lenses correcting astigmatism.
astigmatism: a refractive error of the eye in which parallel rays of light from an external source do not converge on a single focal point on the retina.
if it wasn't for you
finally tried the Nong Shim Curry Ramen on Xiaxue's blog a few days back. not my kind of curry mee, thumbs down.
i think mine look more scrumptious, than hers. haha
7th, Saturday: library with bo to research on how to make cupcakes. had lots of fun since so much happened. i'm greedy and i want more of these happy moments! and we had mac for dinner, we're so dreaming of getting the 50,000$ from the monopoly game.
7th, Saturday: library with bo to research on how to make cupcakes. had lots of fun since so much happened. i'm greedy and i want more of these happy moments! and we had mac for dinner, we're so dreaming of getting the 50,000$ from the monopoly game.
Friday, November 6
Tuesday, November 3
hyperventilating
I'm going bonkers, stucked at hme with my afternoon motion sickness and the sucky weather.
I want food,
I need food,
I want my boyf ):
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