She might be growing increasingly frustrated at his evasiveness about the future hardening into a refusal to talk about at all. But she still could not bring herself to walk away, to step bravely out into a life without him for the simple reason that such a life seemed too bleak and pointless even to contemplate.
She was woken by a sharp slap.
IT was hard because she tried and had, gambled, lost, and not yet recovered her equilibrium. It was hard because, as time went on and her broken heart began to heck, she couldn't help asking herself if he was keep of a true and great love in her life and more a waste of space, and this a gnawing regret.
There was something and him that called to her, something about individuality, about certainty, about making something of what was on offer, however odd.
However hard, she is woken by the hard slap and decided to force herself on. For it was certain he wants her out of his life forever, and never on the list anymore. She is going to push herself on, finally.
P/S: Thank you for striking and blocking her on every possible connection, in every means, pushing her to death sentence.