Zhu Wo Sheng Ri Kuai Le.

it my BIRTHDAE todaae!! muahaha.. duno wad to do nw.. dis yr's bdae quite happening sia.. happie happie.. nobody at hme nw.. so sian.. haha.. maybe ltr going out to eat or sumthing.. i dunnoe..
i'm still couning dwn to sundae..
wednesdae, thursdae, fridae, saturdae, sundae!!
5 more daes!!! muhahaha..
HAPPIE BIRHTDAE TO ME!
HAPPIE BIRHTDAE TO ME!
HAPPIE BIRHTDAE TO ME!
HAPPIE BIRHTDAE TO ME!
*making a wish* (0.o ")

Money Makes the World Go Round!!!

haha.. todae yanz and me went for interview.. OMG. stupid angie, sae i got gin na bin then cannot work. then still sae yanyi figure nt gd.. wad sia she.. nvm, at least she got us some work to do sia.. somemore $5/hr, frm 9-6.. 9hrs leh.. haha.. minus one hr for lunch, 8hrs.. the best part is tt we collect cash on the spot!! its near my house too!!! haha.. i'm so happie todae..
waiting for sundae to come.. haha.. reali cant wait..

Hao Ren Yuan Guan Xi

haha.. december has gotta be my month of the year!! i'm so so so happie dis mth.. first i found my long ost childhood fwen -> KunXian Ge.. and thn nw i found my other so-called-gd-fwen-in-pri-sch-daes-classmate -> Looi Wei Hao!! lolx.. how can i denied such a tian yi?? i'm so gald to find my fwen at the same time i'm happie tt i could reali enjoy myself wif ma fwens!!
i wen to sentosa wif my dearest fatin and her sis fatiha.. we reali spent such woinderful times together tt dae.. haha.. we went sun-tanning, tuoring around sentosa and went shopping at harbour front.. fatin said her wanted to buy the $60 bag.. for sch nxt year la.. but ot was too ex liao!! haha.. but the bag was reali a nice one.. muahaha.. tinking of how to get the money to buy the bag was another problem.. sighz sighz.. work?? maybe..
okie.. nw weihao.. hmmm.. wad's wif him leh? all i noe was tt he jus got his internet conncetion and is nw trying to add lots of fwen on to his friendster account.. (despo) haha.. nw still kept asking me to log into friendster in the middle of the nite jus to find fer him the pri sch fwens.. L-A-M-E!! stupid.. haven get to see him dis yr yet but, can sae tt he changed quite alot frm pri til nw bah.. the wae he tok is different liao..last time is dao dao de.. den nw got so many things to tok.. talkactive ar.. haha.. but i reali couldn't make out wad he was saeing 40% of the time cos HIS VOICE BREAK LE!!! OMG!! still okie la.. nt until veri jialat tt type.. nice guy.. oh ya! he's oso veri despo for stead loh.. sighz.. ani gals wanna oe him, jus contact me and i'll tell u how to.. haha.. eh weihao, i helping u do promotion leh.. must gan ji wo okie? haha =b

KunXian?? he's back again..

it's 2nd dec.. it's oso happens to be kun's bdae.. jus knew it ytd onli.. haha.. =b but he's nt in s'pore, in m'sia fer dragon's boat race bah... if i'm nt wrong.. hehe.. recently got to tok to him oso la.. after lost for so long.. haiz.. lolx.. change quite alot ya? in the sense of physical and socialbility lah.. reali gald to know him back after for so so so so many yrs ago..
shuo lai hua chang, know him since when we were kids bah.. about 9/10 yrs ago? when i was still in kidergarden 1.. used to go to his house.. play eat, eat play.. wahaha.. still rmb once when we both used his newly bought com.. i didnt even dared to touch while he left me wif the screen still half-way through the game. haha.. until i went up to upper pri then stop hanging out le.. oso dunno why..
until recently then got to know him back though his sister.. haha.. after so many yrs ar.. nw tink tt he kinda shuai.. haha.. hearing frm my fwen after viewing his testi, he kinda haf "nu ren yuan" la.. lots of gers write testi for him.. jealous? nah.. not at all.. to me, frm young, he's like my bro.. protecing me frm the stupid things his sister and lil bro would do to me.. haha.
last of all, wanna wish him happie bdae! don worry.. sure would buy u present de.. when i haf the time.. when u cum back to gif u bah.. muahaha..

HOLIDAES!!

haha.. it the start of the holidaes liao.. so happie.. finally can tke a long long break until nxt year le.. toking baout next year hor.. sian 1/2 liao.. sec 4 liao.. got 'O' lvls le.. haiz.. scared le.. must reli real i work hard dis year.. mus work towards the goal.. luckily mangane to squezee through to sec 4.. phew.. close shave sia..
must reali real i work hard nxt year le.. jia you to all sec 4s nxt year.. must all get through 'o' lvl!!

海洋之心

蔡依林
<海洋之心>
像百慕达扑朔迷离
像爱琴海浪漫多情
像加勒比海的热力
每座海都像一个你
沿着海岸线去旅行
我要环游每个你
从赤道一直到北极
爱上你每种风情
under the sea x2
你的辽阔里你的蔚蓝里充满神秘
每一个幸福的海域
都有一颗海洋之心
我们要一起找爱的谜底
under the sea
你爱我的心像潮汐
有时澎湃有时冷静
温柔又任性的脾气
你和海像得可以乘着爱之船去旅行
我要了解每个你
就算沉没在你怀
under the sea
里洋流像微风
浪花像白云爱是氧
气把大海当天空飞行
飞向最深处的海底
最美的幸福也许在那里
under the sea
蔚蓝海水里存在爱情的应许之地
最珍贵的海洋之心
原来就在我们手里
我们要一起向幸福前进
under the sea
气把大海当天空飞行
飞向最深处的海底
最美的幸福也许在那里
原来在我的相信里
我会更努力爱上每个你
最美的幸福不需要找寻
只要我爱你那海洋之心
在我们心里会永远美丽
under the sea

End-of-Year

todae's the first dae of the EOY.. sian sian sian!! i haven even start studying yet loh.. wad the hell.. haiz.. hopefully can cramp everything together on one dae bah.. *wish wish wish* hahaz.. [051005-131005]
nt fair rt? the 3b and 3c ppl last paper on 121005 then the other on 131005.. haiz.. not fair sial.. nvm.. at least art is nt tt diffcult la.. heng!!
gotta dash nw.. needa study sia.. tml s.s, merger and seperation.. =)

"singapore wanted merger wif malaya due to mostly economic reasons.."

爱多少早知道

爱多少早知道

我的头发已全部剪掉
你指定的发型我现在不想要
我再也不会抱着你聊
聊那些以前以为有的未来对你说的话
现在想起来多可笑请你别太计较

早知道我会爱得受不了
就该随身带着一把剪刀
把所有我不爱的画面都去掉
是否我会更好
早知道认识你像玩高空弹跳
拉扯你我爱的距离忽大忽小
也许认识我的时候你就知道你对我的爱有多少

mua, qiiu's and viic's shoes!! mine's so ugly and old.. haiz.. poor mah.. no $$ to buy sia..

it's bout time

it's about time fer me to wake my senses up.. haiz.. i reali don believe in waiting fer the time to come to me.. it's nt worth the time waiting.. i noe i'm nt fortunate, nt lucky enough.. luck will nt alwaes be wif me all the time.. i've been playing a fool the past two years.. o's are jus next year.. but the studying and effort all starts nw.. lady luckiex, pls.. come back next year.. during my o's.. i'll try and work hard k? it all starts nw.. right nw.. nw until the veri last min, last sec of the o's..

wad's the fuss about my zippy studs? can anyone pls enlighten me? it's jus a zip!! for goodness sake.. haven u seen it somewhere it b4? and elyas, there's a stud behind the zip.. i don zip the zippy into my ear!! stop staring at it!!

Love ur Loved ones well

Jane is a typical college girl
who enjoys life to the fullest. She loves her
boyfriend so much and texts him every now and
then.

Mark is Jane's boyfriend who works in a
call center in los angeles. He's always busy doing
so many things. He only manage to reply to Jane's
texts when he got off from work.

One time mark receive a message from
jane : "hi baby! how are you? i miss you! call my
house when u get home..take care! i love
you!"

mark ignored the message because he
always receive the same message whenever it is
time for him to go home from work.

"baby, i miss you..did u eat yet?! take care
when you get home! ill be waiting for your
call..i love you!"

"baby, where are you?! its unfair that you dont
reply to my texts... well, im just gonna wait for
your call..i love you!"

Mark reaches home and lay on his bed.
The last time he knew is that he's reading Jane's
text.
He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn't
able to return jane's call. He can still hear his
phone beeps but he's too tired to take a glimpse
on the message.

When he woke up the next day, he remembers
that he needs to call Jane. He ignored the
messages and dialed Jane's .. No one's answering
in her house. He called up her cellphone and
he was surprised that her father answered the
call.
In his voice you can feel his tears and hear his
heart tearing apart.



"Mark, why havent you called?. Jane was
waiting for your call all night!"

"Dad im sorry. i fell asleep being so tired
from work... i was calling ur house but no
one was answering. where are you? so i
can come over."

"Just meet me at jane's house."
Mark went to Jane's house and much to
his surprised he saw a lot of people inside.
The house were so lighted but you can see the
gloom on every person you'll meet there. He was
greeted by Jane's mom on tears. She hug him tight
and cried on his shoulders.

"Jane was waiting for you. She didnt come
with us because she was waiting for your
call. She was killed by robbers that broke
in our house. Shes gone, Mark. She's gone."

"thats impossible..she texted me..how could
this happen!"

Mark can't look who's inside the coffin. He can't
move and it feels like his whole body is stuck on
the chair hes seating on. He wanted to cry
but it seems that something is blocking his tears
to fall down. He turned to his phone and read
the messages of Jane.

"baby, im not coming with my mom and
dad..im just gonna wait for your call.."

"baby..im so scared... it seems like theres
someone downstairs..please call me now!"

"babe..someones here..they might kill
me..please call me now, where are you? i
need you here..."

"baby.... i love you!..."

He wanted to shout and cry so loud. It's
true that Jane is waiting for his call. Up to her last
breath she only thinks about him.

He stared at Jane inside the coffin.
Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks. He
can't say anything. The only words he uttered...

"My baby, i'm so sorry! I could have known, i
could have fought for you! i'm really sorry! I
love you so much!"

nice? i jus imply lurve taking neoprints.. i dunno why leh.. dis is one of the nicest bah.. i like first and last one.. so nice rt? we're such gd fwens.. lolx.. i lurb ma fwens!!

Life..

life can be real trip!! it;s a journey full of choices, experiences and new meetings.. sometimes it can throw u so many twists and turns.. you can lose ur wae.. and sometimes one path ends and we haf to turn around and find another.. but in all of my travels i've discovered one veri important thing bout life's journey.. where we begin, where we are nw and wherewe end up.. reali doesnt matter.. wad matters most are the loved ones we meet along the wae and who make the journey wif us!


sometimes we imgine tt the world os so big.. and sometimes when tt happens it makes us feel so small.. tt's when we get afarid and feel so helpless.. and sometimes we forgot.. tt the world is onli as big as we imgine it is.. and we are onli as small as we imgine we are..so rmb tt when the world makes us feel afarid and helpless it;s jus our IMGINATION!!


things in the cartoon world are veri different frm the real world! for instance, we need to look the same wae, no matter how we might reali feel. and, of cos, it's veri important tt we nvr paint outside the lines tt are drawn for us.. we nvr wan ppl to tink we arent perfect, so we remove all old line.. and, jus to be safe, we try to cover up all our little mistakes.. tt wae we can be sure ppl see us in exactly the wae we tink they expect us to be.. er.. come to tink of it. actually, when u tink about it.. there's reali no difference between our world and the cartoon world after all!!

I Love You

Him: I saw her today
Me: I saw him today

Him: It seems like its been forever
Me: I wonder if he still cares

Him: She looks better than before
Me: I couldn't stop staring at him

Him: I asked her how things were going
Me: I asked about his new girlfriend

Him: I'd choose her over any girl im with
Me: He's probablly really happy right now

Him: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
Me: He couldnt even look at me

Him: I told her I miss her
Me: He doesnt mean it

Him: I meant it
Me: He didnt mean it

Him: I love her
Me: He loves his new girlfriend

Him: I held her for the last time
Me: He gave me a friendly hug

Him: Then I went home and cried
Me: Then I went home and cried

Him: I lost her
Me: I still love him


._I'm in love with someone/still are in love with someone_.


I'm thinking of you
I care about you.
I'm missing you
I want to hold your hand.
I want you to be happy.
I want to hug you.
I'm willing to do anything for u.
I need to know your love is unconditional.
I want to tell you how much they care.
I want to stay up watching movies with you.
I want to hold you in their arms.
I want to see you.
I want to be your lover.
I love you for who you are.
I love the way you make them feel.
I want to be with you.
I want you to know they are there for you.
I'm is glad that you're their friend.
I'm wishing you would notice them.
I want to get to know you better.
I love you.

Her English version of >'Tong Hua'<

I have forgotten how long was it,
Since I last heard you,
Telling me your favorite story,
I have been thinking for a very long time,
Im beginning to feel paranoid,
Did I make any mistakes again?


I came and tell you with the tears in
my eyes,
That fairytales are all lies,
Its impossible for you to be my prince charming,
Maybe i will not understand,
After the moment when you said you loved me,
The stars in my sky, are beginning to
shine and shimmer.


Im willing to be, the angel you love,
In the fairytales,
Open my arms wide,
And let it become wings, to protect you,
You have to believe,
Believe that we will be like the fairytale,
With happiness and joy as the ending.


Everything is our beautiful ending.

Singalella why become rich ?

Gu zhar wu chee eh char bor kia, Singalella.

She got two sisters, but the stepmarder and the
sisters all damn kuai-lan, so she quite jia-lat
oso.

Last time Singalella got own maid, but now she
become the amah.

Everyday must cook lah, clean lah, simi sai ma
bao-ka-liao.

If her sister say liak kar zhua, she liak.

Tai ji zho kah tau-hin.

CPF poon boh.

But then, kay pia eh ah-pek got one son call Ah
Ming got party.

So he say, "oeh, long chong lai ah."

Singalella very happy because she never go party
before but then her step-marder say, "Lee Ma na
eh sai kee, this one bah ru li eh sisters wu
standard."

Then Singalella must zho sui-sui for her sisters
and step-marder.

Tap pai how, buay jia, buay koon and buay pang-
sai.

That night she only can wave bye bye and then
she go back to the kitchen and cook Maggi mee.

Her neighbour came over and ask, "Eh, an zhua li
boh kee party?"

So Singaalella kong, "wa ai kee, lau-bu kong buay-
sai,so boh pian."

She never expect but the neighbour say, "Aiyah,
kee lah, I give you money."

So singalella brush teef and zhang-zhui, cheng-kor,
after that look very different.

She quickly run to opposite of the beh-chia-lor,
already 11 o'clock.

At the party, Ah Ming also quite sian because the
char bor all boh sui one.

Dance floor even got one ah pek dancing.

Just as Ah Ming told himself, "Aiyah si bei jia-
lat", Singalella came in.

Ah Ming straight away lau nuar.

"Wah-lau eh, si bei heng ah, chee kor buay pai."

Ah Ming say to Singalella, "eh, sui eh, wah ai kah
lee zho flen!"

Singalella say ok but Ah Ming like octopus, touch
here touch there.

But then just it was 12 o'clock, one ah pek die on
the dance floor.

He become ghost and tell Singalella all the good
4D number.

So after that Singalella quickly go and buy 4D, and
then tio tao-pio, zhit-pa ban.

So she pay back the kay-piak eh lau kay poh and
then kah kee cho sheng lee.

Simi kuan eh sheng lee wah mana eh zai.



Muahahaha.. copied.. hope ya guy can understand bah.. hehe =)

me and ting.. haha.. gal power!! hehe.. cute hor? haha.. taken quite some time liao.. i hate my hair.. haha.. i like the we both posed victory.. haha.. tin saes it's nice too.. haha.. i'll try to put my neoprints up bah.. haha.. at least most of them i guess..

see? me & sam.. cant see my eyes rt? haha.. too bad la.. i oso don wan de mah.. but when i smile, my eyes will become so small.. so pathetic.. haiz.. at least i try nt to smile too hard nw.. haha.. nice rt? i draw de leh.. heh heh..

see? lionel's dog.. so cute rt? haha.. i loveeee it sooo muchhh.. haha.. like fake de.. =P

Ryan Lee

orh man! i cant believe dis! since the dae i saw him, i've been love.. so in lurve wif him.. it was on tt dae when i saw him, i wanted to buy tt April issue of TEENAGE but, i changed my mind.. if i've brought tt cpoy, i would haf seen him for like ten thousand times liao.. hmmph, reali ar.. walao.. shi me man! oh my! dear!! how i missed u! hahaz.. since tt Samuel ^ Kelvin shirt, i've nvr forgot u.. i noe, u've already panted a seed of lurve in my heart.. dear, how i wished i could be wif u everdae! do u noe how terrible i elt when i turned & left tt dae? how i wished i could turn back time! tt smile at YOSHINOYA was so charming!! it truly touched my heart! ARGH! i;m so in lurve wif u!! Ryan, i lovey you!! *muackz*

One Fine Dae

hmm.. start toking bout sch first bah.. todae they got mass P.E. then i didnt get to see then after sch la.. so sad.. haha.. nicole sae he playing bball. haiz.. we were kinda guai todae bah.. went hme about 3.18pm.. sianz.. reach hme liao oso got nth to do.. then i go popular again loh.. see can buy wad.. hmm, then bought the ring file.. charlene last time tt colour- the nt green nt blue one. darn sian.. yah, oso bought a UNI-BALL signo DX blue-black ink pen. it's so fine loh.. veri nice pen though.. then i went hme, passing byt the newspaper stand & bought a copy of the Aripl's issue of 17. quite a lame issue bah.. yeah, i'm so gald tt songhui still got tt Incredibles thing on again.. it's kin of a long story so i won tell u guys.. aww, reali miss the daes wif him.. so xing fu. =P so i took a bus hme & laze round da house loh.. ate dinner then went online for some blog editing. thnk goodness there's nicole to help me.. or els oso dunnoe must do until wad time loh.. i add the Zhou Jie Lun's Jian Dan Ai into my blog.. it's nt veri suitable since my blog's kinda saddiez.. hehe.. i'll try to change it some time l8r.. lionel got his own blog too.. hope it's nt something like i know i love u deeply bah.. argh.. it reali get on my nerves sometimes. hehex.. quit writing here.. hand veri suan liao.. haha =) gd nite guys.. heffa long, nice, sweet weekend.. cheers! *

Let's Tok!

i mean, yah, let's tok! hey, er.. if u tink tt it cannot be solved then u're like so so so darn wrong man! pls and if u haf anything troubling ya.. feel free to tok to anybody bout it.. i'm sure they will be gald to hear u. don vent ur anger on other stuff k? i don like it and so do the others.. pls, pls and pls.. i don wan the other coaches to tink tt we're hopeless liao loh.. if u nt shuang jus ren k? it's like training is onli for about three hours? bear wif it.. everything's gonna be alrt..
don tink tt u're alwaes rt loh.. u're nt everytime.. the world doesnt owe u a living, nobody owe u anything.. u're like anybody els in the team, u're nt special. u haf an attitude & i noe it.. everybody els haf it too.. it's jus tt u;re using it far too often liao.. overboard le.. i'm nt in any placr of having any rights to scold or preach anyone.. jus co-operate? pls..

Cindrella's Tale

todae ar? hmmm.. nth much but i tink i can man man xi guan dis type of shen hou le. haha.. chim seh.. thnk u thnk u.. btw, if u're close to me, u shld had oready heard of dis thing called 'Chinese S' (chinese A.S.S) [& the A.S.S happened to -> A Simplified Syllabus] cool eh? =)
went o CCAB again to watch B boys (er-hem, and of cos him la!) plae.. then i'm so so so darn suprised that tt Jasper & Benjamin came.. hmmm, i wonder if there's a motive.. ze me hao si come support.. haha, maybe got hz, jz and jj there so they kpo kpo follow loh.. haha, i know i veri bad.. it's gd tt they come along la.. er, to show support for the team oso.. after tt leave the sports hall le then haf to walk back the same wae out mah.. (plae safe) haiz, then how i noe so ciao, go hme oso see them. at first i didnt see them de, cos the court veri farthen the nicole saw.. then yah, u noe la.. i kena paiseh again loh.. haiz. wei se me wo de ming ze me ku ar?!
kkiez, we went WM to eat my fav. XIAO WAN MIAN!! muahaha.. yummy! fell like eating it nw argh! so late le, close liao! haha.. mw like 10.31pm liao, sian cant get to slp leh.. reali.. listening to my mp3(Ashlee Simpson -> La La). next will Jay-> An Jing.. Zhou Jie Lun leh, my ou xiang! he's so shuai! Prince Charming seh. hehex.. k, back to the xiao wan mian.. then went to HAPPY HOUSE loh.. hmmp, after much consideration, i'm gonna but the butterfly towel, the hippo cosmetics bag and maybe the long pillow. (haha, actually nt pillow la.. shi a wrist rest loh.. haha) we veri innovative rt? okay la, it's nt me la, is nicole.. haha, don steal ur limelight! but le then go hme liao loh.. haha told nicole some stuff la.. i tell u also k? come, put ur ear at the speaker.. faster! can hear nt? hah.. stupid! =P hey, so much for the cappiness, it's time to slp liao! G.N! hope tt dis CINDERELLA TALE contiune! lady luck has jus followed me!! yippie!

Friends

FRIENDS. i finnaly know the meaninng behind the word F.R.I.E.N.D.S. friends are alwaes there fir u when u needed them.. nt when they need u. friends are the oneswho led u to the right path and nt bring u bad. they are the ones who share ur ups and downs wif u & nt turn their backs on u. friends are the most important ppl whom u would neva wan to lose in ya whole entrie life.. trust me, w/o friends, it's like living a soul.
wad is saddeninng is tt what happened cannot 'un-happen'again. once u lose their trust, TT'S IT MAN! it's veri veri difficult to gain it back again. & once u lose ur friends, u'll find the daes are like shi jie mo ri.. it's painfully tt i don tink anyine of u guys wanna haf a taste of it..

tt's my dae

todae, veri thing sucked! haha.. =P seriously, why everything going like tt?haiz, hen lei ar! went to popular todae. tot tt it would be fun, BUT! none of wad i xpected was happening leh.. haiz. *sadsad* didnt wan daphne to buy the same file as me.. but then she bought the fle tt i like leh.. no choice loh.. haf to gif her.. after tt, we(nicole & me) wen back to her house, on the wae, i was complainingbout nt seeing the down symdrome de.. haha, but the least i knew, i saw him & his gang at the little hut (no la, the little wooden shelter near the bus stop.) wad a thing.. haha. =) *winks* i pretent tt i got sand in my eyes, then i started rubbing so didnt eali get to see him la.. haha. but the nicle toldd me tt he was looking at me.. haha, dunnoe whether she puling my leg nt.. (hope nt la! haha) but tt wasnt a bad thing after all.. at least i knew tt he had some place in my heart. haha.. =)

Me & My Dears

haha. todae i jus did something veri stupid.. *bleahz* i named the guys tt i tink are handsome.. they are:
-my down syndrome dear: Elyas
-my cute beary dear: Songhui
-my gongkia deaar: Jasper

haha.. dumb rt? no choice.. boys are meant to be dumb anyway.. lolx.down syndrome, beary and gongkia.. haha.. beta than sarah rt? her dear wad name she oso dunnoe ar.. haha.. got honey, dear dear and dunoe still got wad shit la.. haha..

awww... i'm already missing my dears liao loh.. haiz.. sian.. reali feel like seeing them rt nw.. yeah.. and i mean rt nw.. dis veri darn mintues, dran second.. muahaha..hehe. they are all so cute(and handsome of cos) and they are simply adorable.. u will lurb them too.. haha.. sae until they like plushies for sale.. haha promotion going on.. buy one get one free.. opps, is buy one get 12 free.. haha (note: nicole, rmb? haha.. josephiney-cide. yikes!! gross)

Jealous? Sad? Angry?

I dunnoe hoe I felt when he called huiting back. Why didn’t he return her call but igored mine? Hmmmp… sianz.. dunnoe leh.. I felt kind of angry, jealous & abit sad loh.. I almost cried for goodness sake!! Luckily I controlled lah.. of cos. Then wad u xpect? Cry infront of huiting, Charlene, c boys & bing zhao meh? Of cosi won la.. went home to cry loh.. haiz..

Mixed feelings. They are so diffcult to control.. but I tried rt? Is there nth wrong wif tt?

I cried for him the 5 time liao.. haiz.. why do I alwaes fell feel way? Wo zhen de fang bu xia ta mah? wo bu yao yi bei zi dou ze me nan gou leh.. I must overcome dis.. I can do it.. I can do it.. I CAN DO IT!! =) jia you bah josie!!

An lian yi ge ren shi hen tong ku de..
Wo bu xiang bah ta chang zhai xing li de?
Ru gou wo ba ta shuo chu lai,
Wo hui kai le mah?
Wo hui bi yi qian nan gou mah?
Wo neng qie shou yi hou de shi si mah?

There are too much stuff & factors to consider about.. I would rather suffer in silence than to make the ppl round me sad & unhappy.. I noe tt they are worried bout me.. if I cant even bare through dis little obstacle.. how can I survive in my liitle own world? Tust me.. I can do it.. don worry..

"Darling"

tt stupid nicole ask to me to go author her skirt wif her.. i noe, as i sae in the previous post, i hate her rt? but u see ar, one of the values of being human is to forgive and forget.. (tt's one of my most hate-ed values *bleahz*) in chinese, zou ren yao na de qi fang de xia.. haha.. u see, i disappeared after sch to IMM.. took a cab there.. haha, i noe it's abit lame to take a cab frm sch to IMM.. but i'm going wif nicole, so.. do i haf i choice? =X

at first i didnt noe wad to tok.. but then i ask if i could take a look in her phone.. and she was like making me promise tt i wouldn't change my attitude to her after reading the msg.. haha.. of cos i wouldn't rt? if i would, i wouldn't be sitting infront of her liao mah.. lolx. wah, i read the msg frm him liao hor, i reali can die ar!!! oh my goodness.. i'm not going to tell u wad he said to her.. but, all tt i can tell u is tt i reali felt abit jealous la.. (and a little bit sad loh..) but wad can i do? i cant force them not to communicate de rt? i don wan mt best friend to miss a gd guy liao loh.. not again..

then when we were going home, i msged her then call her darling la.. to tease her mah.. then she call me dear loh.. haha.. so funny rt? then like tt loh, i my NICOLE darling liao loh.. haha.

i promise tt i will treat my darling wif care and concern de.. haha. won ill-treat her de.. haha =) and i will give her happiness.. and to KokLeng & Nicole: don ying wei wo then u both don stead hor.. i reali don like him liao.. go bah, nicole! wo hui zi chi ni de!!

Missing You

oh shit me man! i'm missing him again.. haiz.. reali reali wan to be like the wind and be strng.. haiz.. cried for him for three daes loh.. don reali tink can forget bout him in my whole of my life liao loh.. dis time round it's nt bcos of michelle.. it's bcos of nicole..

oh my, i could never never tink tt he would actually like nicole.. OMG, nicole okay?! the bubbly, huaghty, "rude" & BRAND-CONCIOUS.. my goodness.. frm michelle to nicole. i noe one's taste is sure bound to change but isn't tt TOO drastic?? nicole, the friend whom i used to tink tt she's the one.. the one tt my ideal best friend would be..

she's the one tt would be there for me no matter wad the hell happened to me.. she's oso the one who would be there to share the jokes wif me, sings the songs wif me.. pratically, rachel, nicole & josephine = the threesome foreva together.. we three are the ones tt would be punished together. in chinese class, we're the ones (threes) tt sat together, toking and gossipping about guys.. laughing and screaming in the class..

these momories were no longer in there anymore.. totally deleted.. it's all bcos of him.. the hateful guy.. why would u haf appeared in my life? if u wasn't there, maybe, i would be better off than the pathertic state i'm in nw.. i may die any moment frm on.. do u noe tt? i jus cant believe tt u would ask me tt if i'm fine.. tt's i totally stupid question.. of cos i'm nt fine!! how could i be fine when i see the one tt i like liking someone was the greatest person on the entire earth?

i'm trying to forget u but u are oso there in my mind.. i hate it for being there. most of all I HATE U!!

I dream

In my mind, I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirits there were eagles dare to fly
In my heart, there’s a spark that can light the world around me
An open door where I am sure dreams are

It doesn’t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cos the race is all believing in yourself

Chorus
I dream I can run
Like the wind and be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream I can be
The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream

There’s a time, in your life
When the odds are so against you
There’s no defeat if all you keep is pride
First or last slow or fast, there’s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on when worlds have come apart

It doesn’t matter rich or poor
Or the things you’ve done before
Cos the race is all about believing in yourself

Chorus

I dream of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

I dream I can run
Like the wind and be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream I can be
The hero that’s in me
I dream, I dream

Mei Mei & Kor Kor!!

Dis is the second time I’m msging him.. haha.. here’s the msg ~> “tml sch reopen le.. tonight must slp well k? good nite, sweet dreams..” haha.. I noe la. veri tupid but then hor, I reali got nth to write liao then I reali wanna wish him all the best for the first dae of sch la.. then if nvr slp well how to haf a dae at sch leh? Haha.. here comes his msg.. … *reading* oh, nt another one who had mentioned about the new uniform liao.. shit him loh.. still can laugh.. f*** la, suddenly haf flashback.. the tot of giving him up reali scared me.. but frankly speaking, I’m nt veri confident of forgetting about him loh..to give him up to michelle is veri impossible loh. But wad to do? EVEN if I do get him, he won even stop tinking of michelle.. so wad the hell? So, my final decision is forget him of possible.. at least I’m trying veri hard to.. I’m nw asking him to be kor la.. by making him my kor, can remind me to forget about him tt he’s nw my bro.. anyway, it’s still something tt I’m glad tt I’ve done something about it..

Happy New Year!!!

Todae is the dae of the new yer.. went countdown wif my cousins.. haha.. nt reali countdown loh.. but then still got celebrate (pls take note tt when mean celebrate = to shouting around like a carzy woman.. )when it was 12am.. haha.. so lame rt? I noe.. we went round sending msges to ppl wishing them happi new year.. haha.. I wished him oso u noe.. lolx.. then he replied.. haha… sounded happi rt? Yups.. I ben lai oso didn’t expect him to reply de.. then he reply loh.. haha.. sounded like so fairy tale rt? Lolx. =P