holiday mood

this cny wasn't that fun afterall. due to recession cause, my ang paos has dropped to an alarming rate and not the stakes this yr ain't that much. frm 1 dollar per card dropped to the rate of 10cents per card. booo. ain't that bad, i won almost a 100bux frm this two days of hard work. and all this winnings will all go to BBDC ): no shopping for more tops and v'day ): ):

no picture frm cny cos my new phone can't do silent snapshots and i hate it. and everyone is so cooped up with their own stuff that i totally have no idea who and wad to do a noisy snapshot on. no photos of baby amelia, big-mouthed rachael or blood sissy felicia.

maternal side, everyone is so kind not to bring their boyfs and gfs along this cny. and they've stopped their "eh, u got no boyf meh?" thing. which is good, cos i lost mine ever since the longest time on earth and i'm like still going through the wad u call "recovering process". to take my mind off the 'boyf' stuff, eugene cousin started phycho-ing me to drop my riding lessons. so long as i drop the whole idea, he will return all the moolahs i've pumped into my pathetic account in cashhhh. haa. nice cousin, but sorry, josey here is too poor to take up driving. mayb after my 2B, i'll start on driving when i've got more money while waiting for my 1yr to pass before getting 2A. hehe.

bad news! i've like alrdy spent 170bux at BBDC? how fast is that pls. another 2 pracs and my account will be empty again.

oh, clever me booked another RTE slot again. think i'm gonna at least flip the handbook through tonight. prac after RTE, scared siol. how how how, am i suppose to bring helmet to work? funny sial!

shld i get a iPod Touch? my paternal cousin was playing with it during cny and i'm like so gian to get one too. but it's like 388 leh. buy that after payday and i'll eat grass and i can jolly well stop my riding for good ): i wan iPod Touch leh~ or shld i get a DS? psp is getting abit dry tho.

there's so much so much that i wanna buy, yet i still don't have the spending power to do so D: i shall save more money first then see how it goes? eeeyer~ i wan my kate spade wallet and my longchamp bag leyyyy.

i think i shall catch 大喜事 or 幸福万岁 this weekend. or perhaps i shld watch both? or shld i go for a swim? smlj. i need a breather la.
pearlie, if u're seeing this. I WANNA WATCH BRIDE WARS LA~ pleaseeee.

P/S: 16 more days to Valentine's leh. kaoscxzs

pangseh gui~

新年咯！大家今年要大旺特旺 ，赌博赢大钱，钱生钱！
今年经济不景气，希望可一拿多一点红包钱，赢多一点来补贴回在BBDC的super chor消费


i failed my RTE pathetically ytd and i'm very bothered abt it
fuck.

i haven't even started RTL and i didn't even touch my books at all and i went for the RTE, clever siol~ fyi, i jus completed BTL that same afternoon, less than an hr, i went for my RTE and after dinner was my first RTL. worse comes to worse, i might consider the alternative of asking mw to take my RTE for me sial.
and wtf, yc got his license on tuesday leh. kaozxczxs

after cny, will be chiong-ing for circuits first then RTT and RTE at the same time D: no choice, i'm a poor kid. i desperately need my cny money to pump more money into my stupid account.

monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday and today i'm all due at BBDC. it's my lastest favourite hangout after work. oh, BBDC is an amazing place. i get to see all sorts of people. BBDC is forever that entertaining :D

i'm gonna dye my hair with vicki tmr. i'm in need of a bright, new hair colour please. saturday hairdo, sunday 除夕. my hair colour will be extremely fresh. i want red red, brown brown, blonde blonde hightlights ): i think it will look ugly? i can't wait to see my new hair tmr. haa.

shld i book a practise tmr after super far and super early trip to the hairdresser's? hai-aye-aye. troublesome x5876196

the new year mood make me don't wanna work more sia.
i think our new updated communicator is so stylo milo that i totally forgot to log on ebuddy whilst playing with their newly added emoticons. hehehe



P/S: many thanks to wx (: 真的有超感动到

crappppp

最近心情不是很好
不是超好不然就是超差的，时好时坏

遇上了伟贤又是让我又爱又狠
最近都和他保持联络
有的没的就传传一下简讯， 打打一下电话
往往都让他顶到没话讲那也罢了
每次他都会让我又有点小感动，又有纳闷的
就像这样:



也不知为何喜欢和他在他心情好时讲电话，就。。。。
他也是那第一个让我不知不觉地在电话里默默的流泪的大哥哥
谈到公事时，他也好不流情地大大训我一番
只有他啦，那个不知天高地厚，不顾他人感受的枯枯内内
听起来有点不好相处又带一点儿的好男人可是不怎想和他打交道的人吧！
其实他人还满不错的咯至少他在我须要人陪的时候陪伴着我

mundane life

great. pressurized to chiong, i've booked 3 consecutive days of theoretical lessons.
haa.

wednesday: BTL
thursday: BTL + RTL
friday: RTL

kill me please.

unbelievably, i alrdy took thursday off for the lesson. surprise surprise. no choice, i don't wish to take my RTL after cny. according to my bookings, after cny will be RTP :D

i think right now my life will only evolve ard BBDC and work. chiong every thing and let me pass at my first attempt pleaseee~

i love mummy and daddy apple loads. i got loads of enouragement frm mummy and a new pack of ciggs frm daddy (: and why lor, my ciggs always have the mouth photo! eeeyer.

fuck. no half day this week. kns kns kns!


P/S: wish me luck people.

suay please

nabeh!
my flower and a bling dropped out frm my phone!

cb!
!@#*&%~



i'm suay to the max please.
好人不一定会有好报

i thought i was being nice to ask my dear fren along for KTV session. since we haven't seen each other for quite a couple of days. and nw my dear fren is pissed off that she's left with 10 bucks to get her CNY clothes. i swear to god that i have no freaking idea that the money is for her clothes sia. if not i wouldn't even go for KTV D:

and i'm seriously cash strapped nw oso please.
i feel bad. but i'm like pissed at the same time?
wth la

get' on serious

two nights before, i had a very longgg phone talk with sam. starting frm the topic of studying, we ended up talking abt our future kids. ironic as it may seem, but we nvr got far frm this word FUTURE.

sick and tired answering questions like: "u so young, why are u nt studying?", "must be u very playful right, then ur parents don't wanna waste their money to pay for ur studies!", "if u don't study nw, wad can u do in the future?", "if u don't wanna further ur studies at a young age, u wanna wait until u're old like me then u start to mug when u're memory is nt as good as before?", sam and i actually falls in the same pathetic plight.

sometimes there are more 'underneath' reasons that some outsiders don't see when they jus stupidly shoot their 'Study-Questionnaire'. there's some particular unspeakable reasons within ones' problems.

somethings is really not within our limits yet there's nth we can do to resolve the problem but doesn't seem to be a right thing to do when we grumble and complain abt it. i guess this situation is wad we called it helpless? ):

future. sam asked me a very good question, a question whereby i've nvr come up with an answer for.
"wad to u wan to do in the future?"
i have no idea when is future, or wad is future. future 2 months, 6 months, 1 year, 10 years dwn the road? idk! how am i suppose to think abt my future when my current state nw is nt stable at all. superficially, i'm having a normal monday-friday office hour job. and is my future stucked here 5 years dwn the road? shld i stay in this job cause it's 'stable' and my qualification is so low that it's almost close to impossible that i find a job that pays me higher and the working hrs is not as tough? stable job. getting a monthly drawn salary better than getting no pay and contributions to my CPF, means it's stable? i really dunno!

and 10 years dwn the road i'll be 29 and i suppose i'll be married with a small little baby?
wad will it be like to become a mummy, bringing up a child?
will my husband's family despise me because of my low educational level?

okay, mayb i'm thinking too much.
or mayb i'm not?

it seems like i'm nt the only one going through all the crap and shit, some might call it 'Life Experience' or aka, 'Part And Parcel Of Life'. oh holy crap please
my messenger blinks up with a "i jus went for an abortion last week" and a "i think i might have contracted Aids".
my OS? 'oh my fucking mama', the typical-josephine-reaction. i was stuck for words when got those astonishing messages.

i thought my biggest shock ended in 2008. and my two other precious friends announce their shocking news to me. i really wanna thank my mum for not giving me a weak heart. i think there will be more shocking shocks to come?
bless me please. Amitabah.

i jus bought a book a few days ago at San's at vivo. the first chpt is quite dry tho. but i kinda like the storyline. Joanna Trollpe's Friday Nights

not the same cover, i guess mine is the newer one?

why shld u even say something that u don't even mean it? by complying into a condition means following it like a commitment. why some pple can jus comply, making empty promises as and to who they like?
i hate it and it's pissing me off right now, u fucking piece of bullshit.

i'm proud of you ( and myself)

Friday 9th: didn't get my half day as planned long long time ago ): watch ed Red Cliff II with jacq and ken.

had a terrible train ride frm jurong all the way to bishan. recently, all my long public transport ride ain't enjoyable. and that's including taxi rides too. can u imagine urself on a cab frm boon lay to jurong hearing 5 consecutive times of Stupid Cupid? google/imeem it up if u have no idea wad song that is. irritating please!

itchy backside her, they booked the midnight slot in order to get good seatings. ya, midnight slot. after my horrible Pizza dinner, due to my mulfunction jaws, most of the shops were closed. slacked at CoffeeBean!



catch the movie! i think it's awesome if u like smarty-pants outwitting each other, chopping baddie hands and headbands off, u'll enjoy it!

it was such a pity i fell aslp during some parts of the movie. please lor, i suppose everyone knws it's a long movie, and the time slot my clever cousin got us was the midnight one, and it was a friday, a WORKING DAY for me. i was deadbeat, u see. but i jus missed those boring bits, phews.




Saturday 10th: grandma's place with baby amelia (: freaking cute thing she is.

my favourtie wallpaper











dinner at Shin Kushiya. their Ton Katsu Don is really nice. try it please everyone.




Monday 12th: MC.
headed dwn to ICA to get my IC. i'm nt 15 this year so stop it, melvin. BBDC with wx for bike reg. hohohoho after much much talks with mummy, i finally put my words into actions. i wasn't joking when i said i wanted to get my license, u knw.

thnks to wx, i successfully reg my license well. hahaha but i've yet to book my first BTL. so yah...
i suppose jk is far far ahead of me, so i'm considering taking it tog with zac. well, at least there's company to and fro BBDC right!

my shity tummy was cramping all day. all thnk to the women's monthly cycle ): doctor says i have low blood pressure.
o...kay~ so i have to jump up and dwn the whole day to pump more blood to my heart? hahaha. i totally gave everything back to my bio teacher.

i slpt at 5+ this morning yet i wasn't late for work.
corrections, technically, i was late, but i'm nt late bcos there's no punchcard system for me to abide cos i'm nt at the main office (: i'm so proud of myself. i actually got my butt on the office chair instead of lying my lazybones at hme rotting. hohohoho. that's so unlike lwx, please tsktsk.

受到pearlie的影响, 我也默默地走向台湾风
她不知不觉地影响了不只我还有。。。
哈哈哈!
pearlie真的有那种影响力只是她并不知




自从昨天的事后, 我似乎比从前更忙了
其实这样也好时间就会过得更快, 也没那么闷
今天是忙到～ 想鬼一样!
无时无刻都在留意老板默默的呐喊
真的～ 是有小忙到哦

作晚也没睡好, 今天超没精神的啦!
就那个无聊的人打来问我是否在睡觉, 明天是有做工吗
拜托! 明明就几点了还打来问我这些有的没的, 气死人!
又不是不了解我的生活习惯, 干吗要多此一举!


please hor, don't call me after 12 unless it's important
limbu wanna slp

oh, we don't look back

7th day of a brand new year. been very busy in and out lately. my punchcard has been very empty recently. thus, i have no commitment or whatsoever. i think it's rather irony to me that i need to have commitments for my job when i'm nt very much appreciated.

as much as i've googled the meaning of COMMITMENT and CONTRACT, it doesn't make a single sense to me now.

commitment:
A pledge to do.
Something pledged, especially an engagement by contract involving financial obligation.
The state of being bound emotionally or intellectually to a course of action or to another person or persons.

contract:
1. an agreement between two or more parties for the doing or not doing of something specified.
2. an agreement enforceable by law.
3. the written form of such an agreement.
4. the division of law dealing with contracts.

pardon me if my english is bad or sth, but i reckon that signing for a contract doesn't state that i'm obliged to tolerate whatever effing shit occurs during working hours.

put urself in my shoes for instance, sitting infront of a computer 8.5hrs for 5 days a week is really shit. i've tried asking ard if there's anything that requires my help, normally they are either too lazy to get me, or they think that i'm stupid and the job is too difficult for me to handle.

going to and fro two offices is totally not stated in my contract either. it's not only tiring, it makes me more difficult to tell the pple at the other office whether i'm in or not (tho it doesn't make any difference, but yah..) cos apparently my boss is expecting me to tell the whole lot that i'm not going in that particular day and it's always last min arranged that i have to go over.

being tied dwn for a year as a temp staff, try and see if u like it.
为何我要做到十全十美, 但明明知道结果并没有回报. i dunno siol~ i don't even get half of the benefits that the perm staff does but i'm required to put in as much effort and have equivalent commitment lvl as them.
basically there's no diff? jus that perms will regard u as 'don't-need-to-do-work-but-oso-get-paid staff' and u're taken for granted even after helping them kio thier shits like disgusting filings etc, etc. they don't like it, they push it to u, dai ji liao liao they will blame u. or when they pass u something and after that u decide to leave cos u see no future or advancement, some time later some follow ups is required on the particular job, temp staff is someone to curse and swear at when they need to do the EXTRA job. 他们也不想想看是谁在帮他们kio他们的垃圾 please. temps are jus merely there to help speed up the work efficiency when there's a vaccancy. the job is still belongs to the perm staffs at the end of the day.

!@#^%*!@?@^

on a side note.
i think it's fairly clear that me and chiaaaa have to gradually fade away frm each others live. greatttt.



Tuesday 6th: thnks to pearlie and her much close to prfessional advises, i got pretty much loot after a few hrs at town.
i'm close to getting all my full CNY outfits. i'm short of a belt, a pair of heels, a bag and probably a clutch? i'm a lazy person so, i'm still considering the gold stud clutch and the chunky heels :O

i think i shall use my ang bao money on more tops. my tops are very limited, 穿得出门的也没几件了. it's pretty tough job digging out tops to match my skirts and jeans. casual yet presentable tees cannot be spotted in my wardrobe anymore )):

did i mention that pearlie and diamondie are much like long lost twins nwadays? as in not appearance wise, there's no twin whereby one is prettaye and the other is fugly :\ alike as in, we speak at almost the same time the same words. we stick tog like almost everyday for more than a week nw?



Saturday 3rd: i got to watch Yes Man, FINALLY~



Fish & co. after that and bused to pearlie's place, again.



Thursday 1st: Happy New Year once again peeeepooos.

pearlie is so nice, she made american style breakfast for me. her scramble eggs are so Big Breakfast style and i loveeee it! (:

addictive breakfast


after much nua-ing, we finally settled dwn to zeng our phones. yes, we both got the same phone and the same colour of blings. and i love my blingy ice-cream phone very much please.

i conveniently took this frm sam's blog, new year has gotta start with a new phone :D


the zeng-ing is addictive. once u start, u won't stop. predicting that we might need more variety of blings, we decided to stop zeng-ing and headed to JP for some dinner groccery shopping and more wu eh bu ehs for our phones.

pearlie's half done


the zeng-ing was such a addiction that we started to zeng our earpiece with the left over pearlies, goldies and random blings.

my after zeng-ed earpiece


aiseh man, for two noobs, i think we did a marvellous job. all i can say is i'm proud of pearlie and myself ((:


P/S: 一直到永远我相信是我最爱你