sick and tired answering questions like: "u so young, why are u nt studying?", "must be u very playful right, then ur parents don't wanna waste their money to pay for ur studies!", "if u don't study nw, wad can u do in the future?", "if u don't wanna further ur studies at a young age, u wanna wait until u're old like me then u start to mug when u're memory is nt as good as before?", sam and i actually falls in the same pathetic plight.
sometimes there are more 'underneath' reasons that some outsiders don't see when they jus stupidly shoot their 'Study-Questionnaire'. there's some particular unspeakable reasons within ones' problems.
somethings is really not within our limits yet there's nth we can do to resolve the problem but doesn't seem to be a right thing to do when we grumble and complain abt it. i guess this situation is wad we called it helpless? ):
future. sam asked me a very good question, a question whereby i've nvr come up with an answer for.
"wad to u wan to do in the future?"
i have no idea when is future, or wad is future. future 2 months, 6 months, 1 year, 10 years dwn the road? idk! how am i suppose to think abt my future when my current state nw is nt stable at all. superficially, i'm having a normal monday-friday office hour job. and is my future stucked here 5 years dwn the road? shld i stay in this job cause it's 'stable' and my qualification is so low that it's almost close to impossible that i find a job that pays me higher and the working hrs is not as tough? stable job. getting a monthly drawn salary better than getting no pay and contributions to my CPF, means it's stable? i really dunno!
and 10 years dwn the road i'll be 29 and i suppose i'll be married with a small little baby?
wad will it be like to become a mummy, bringing up a child?
will my husband's family despise me because of my low educational level?
okay, mayb i'm thinking too much.
or mayb i'm not?
it seems like i'm nt the only one going through all the crap and shit, some might call it 'Life Experience' or aka, 'Part And Parcel Of Life'. oh holy crap please
my messenger blinks up with a "i jus went for an abortion last week" and a "i think i might have contracted Aids".
my OS? 'oh my fucking mama', the typical-josephine-reaction. i was stuck for words when got those astonishing messages.
i thought my biggest shock ended in 2008. and my two other precious friends announce their shocking news to me. i really wanna thank my mum for not giving me a weak heart. i think there will be more shocking shocks to come?
bless me please. Amitabah.
i jus bought a book a few days ago at San's at vivo. the first chpt is quite dry tho. but i kinda like the storyline. Joanna Trollpe's Friday Nights
why shld u even say something that u don't even mean it? by complying into a condition means following it like a commitment. why some pple can jus comply, making empty promises as and to who they like?
i hate it and it's pissing me off right now, u fucking piece of bullshit.