"Darling"

tt stupid nicole ask to me to go author her skirt wif her.. i noe, as i sae in the previous post, i hate her rt? but u see ar, one of the values of being human is to forgive and forget.. (tt's one of my most hate-ed values *bleahz*) in chinese, zou ren yao na de qi fang de xia.. haha.. u see, i disappeared after sch to IMM.. took a cab there.. haha, i noe it's abit lame to take a cab frm sch to IMM.. but i'm going wif nicole, so.. do i haf i choice? =X

at first i didnt noe wad to tok.. but then i ask if i could take a look in her phone.. and she was like making me promise tt i wouldn't change my attitude to her after reading the msg.. haha.. of cos i wouldn't rt? if i would, i wouldn't be sitting infront of her liao mah.. lolx. wah, i read the msg frm him liao hor, i reali can die ar!!! oh my goodness.. i'm not going to tell u wad he said to her.. but, all tt i can tell u is tt i reali felt abit jealous la.. (and a little bit sad loh..) but wad can i do? i cant force them not to communicate de rt? i don wan mt best friend to miss a gd guy liao loh.. not again..

then when we were going home, i msged her then call her darling la.. to tease her mah.. then she call me dear loh.. haha.. so funny rt? then like tt loh, i my NICOLE darling liao loh.. haha.

i promise tt i will treat my darling wif care and concern de.. haha. won ill-treat her de.. haha =) and i will give her happiness.. and to KokLeng & Nicole: don ying wei wo then u both don stead hor.. i reali don like him liao.. go bah, nicole! wo hui zi chi ni de!!

Missing You

oh shit me man! i'm missing him again.. haiz.. reali reali wan to be like the wind and be strng.. haiz.. cried for him for three daes loh.. don reali tink can forget bout him in my whole of my life liao loh.. dis time round it's nt bcos of michelle.. it's bcos of nicole..

oh my, i could never never tink tt he would actually like nicole.. OMG, nicole okay?! the bubbly, huaghty, "rude" & BRAND-CONCIOUS.. my goodness.. frm michelle to nicole. i noe one's taste is sure bound to change but isn't tt TOO drastic?? nicole, the friend whom i used to tink tt she's the one.. the one tt my ideal best friend would be..

she's the one tt would be there for me no matter wad the hell happened to me.. she's oso the one who would be there to share the jokes wif me, sings the songs wif me.. pratically, rachel, nicole & josephine = the threesome foreva together.. we three are the ones tt would be punished together. in chinese class, we're the ones (threes) tt sat together, toking and gossipping about guys.. laughing and screaming in the class..

these momories were no longer in there anymore.. totally deleted.. it's all bcos of him.. the hateful guy.. why would u haf appeared in my life? if u wasn't there, maybe, i would be better off than the pathertic state i'm in nw.. i may die any moment frm on.. do u noe tt? i jus cant believe tt u would ask me tt if i'm fine.. tt's i totally stupid question.. of cos i'm nt fine!! how could i be fine when i see the one tt i like liking someone was the greatest person on the entire earth?

i'm trying to forget u but u are oso there in my mind.. i hate it for being there. most of all I HATE U!!

I dream

In my mind, I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirits there were eagles dare to fly
In my heart, there’s a spark that can light the world around me
An open door where I am sure dreams are

It doesn’t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cos the race is all believing in yourself

Chorus
I dream I can run
Like the wind and be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream I can be
The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream

There’s a time, in your life
When the odds are so against you
There’s no defeat if all you keep is pride
First or last slow or fast, there’s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on when worlds have come apart

It doesn’t matter rich or poor
Or the things you’ve done before
Cos the race is all about believing in yourself

Chorus

I dream of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

I dream I can run
Like the wind and be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream I can be
The hero that’s in me
I dream, I dream

Mei Mei & Kor Kor!!

Dis is the second time I’m msging him.. haha.. here’s the msg ~> “tml sch reopen le.. tonight must slp well k? good nite, sweet dreams..” haha.. I noe la. veri tupid but then hor, I reali got nth to write liao then I reali wanna wish him all the best for the first dae of sch la.. then if nvr slp well how to haf a dae at sch leh? Haha.. here comes his msg.. … *reading* oh, nt another one who had mentioned about the new uniform liao.. shit him loh.. still can laugh.. f*** la, suddenly haf flashback.. the tot of giving him up reali scared me.. but frankly speaking, I’m nt veri confident of forgetting about him loh..to give him up to michelle is veri impossible loh. But wad to do? EVEN if I do get him, he won even stop tinking of michelle.. so wad the hell? So, my final decision is forget him of possible.. at least I’m trying veri hard to.. I’m nw asking him to be kor la.. by making him my kor, can remind me to forget about him tt he’s nw my bro.. anyway, it’s still something tt I’m glad tt I’ve done something about it..

Happy New Year!!!

Todae is the dae of the new yer.. went countdown wif my cousins.. haha.. nt reali countdown loh.. but then still got celebrate (pls take note tt when mean celebrate = to shouting around like a carzy woman.. )when it was 12am.. haha.. so lame rt? I noe.. we went round sending msges to ppl wishing them happi new year.. haha.. I wished him oso u noe.. lolx.. then he replied.. haha… sounded happi rt? Yups.. I ben lai oso didn’t expect him to reply de.. then he reply loh.. haha.. sounded like so fairy tale rt? Lolx. =P