Lost, but i gain.

Saturday October 4: 哇靠! 事事还真够难料的. 就短短 few hrs 我就 lost my 5yrs friendship.

the most corny part is that i'm nw on talking terms with zhe again. Like wooh, i lost but i gain something else back. Hello, excuse me, zhe was once 我生命最重要的男人好不好?! so yes, I'm so glad we met again.

fancy seeing them in a pub. Hohoho. I enjoyed myself pretty much joining their table. With zhe chengpeng steven shawn and jj. They made me laugh real hard playing dice, poker, munching on snacks, forfeiting, after like hw long of slogging. And 周镇棚先生 was extremely nice after me being shouted outside. Well, i know i'm being biased here.

They were all ultra nice la hor. finally was able to put the dice game thing into good use leh. Ya lah, although i was the one playing, cp had to help me forfeit. but i did 牺牲 the itch of my bloody rashes and drank that damn beer dwn too okay. Can't possibly let him forfeit when i'm the one playing wad right got kinda bored and that jj suggested playing some lame dice game. Had real tummyaching laughs yo.

since young til now, i think i've nvr been shouted at in public siol. it's super embarrassing and it fucking made me lost all my 面子. 场面超尴尬的好不好. and all thanks to u-know-who-u-are, my dad saw everything. and expected, i got hell frm when i reached hme.

fuck it.

nw he has extra reaons to ban me frm pubbing. partially bcos i think he saw the rashes oso. whatever.

overall, Chamber Hutz is boring. boring like hell. waitress cannot make it, pple there boring like hell. i think Double C is like so much better. but i still think zhe's table made the pubbing thing not so boring :D and i love them loads loads.



Sunday October 5: i think it's the ageing or it's the hangover. i practically stay at hme the whole day doing nth except nua-ing leh. ultra exhausted, the weather outside was hot like hell.

my initial plan was make a trip dwn to ah ma's place, then queensway for some new stud hunting then alexandra village for some yo ji soup and strawberry milk with zhe.

hah! but i was too lazy to roll my butt out after bathing. so yeah. i nua-ed at hme.

unproductive sunday. hohohoho.


pretty much sry to whoever. sry for being such a weirdo these days. mayb i'm starting to think that i'm ageing, therefore the lax in everything la. i don't feel like talking or bothering abt anything much. mayb i jus like peacefully watch the whole fuckingly corrupted world go by.

i thought i'm the only bitch acting this way leh. but it turns out that zhe is laxing like me too. hahaha. can i say like father like daughter?

seriously, i couldn't care less. and i shld stop making my life miserable for once and for all.

still, i'm not picking up phone call or replying text. actually i wan my phone off, but i can't la. cos i need my boss to call me to pick up the bloody cheque. cos i'm begining to leong to death alrdy. pardon me, i'm always like that.


P/S: my head hurts like hell now. tamade.

Sunny Backside Up

did i say i was so excited to see him ytd?
and my reason being? to get suntanning oil :\
超烂的借口, i know! TSK.

took a super long long time to walk to je, gonna heh ku frm all the crying and my two super good friends jus ate their goddamn fried chicken. kaos!

played SSR like again in dunno how long ago. hah! i'm getting worse now. i think it's the ageing thing, i think it's like making me move slower and my average grade nw is like wad? C? lousy!
god, my asthma nearly came back. hiak hiak hiak. i'm really ageing la! (or is it the smoking? :\)


once again, i hit the sand under the hot sun on this beautiful sunday. nice weather it is today! hah!

well, i gotta admit i'm not as brown as i thought i might be. but i'm burnt lor!

and i saw ruixiang leh at the changing rooms! hohohoho (:


went for lunch at TERRA. it's the first and the last time. not totally expensive. but jus not worthy of the price. and they still charge service charge for their lousy service leh! :O waste of my money. BOOOO!


i love my still-fairer-than-me girl! :D









P/S: i really have to say this leh. it's fucking irritating to be diao-ed by angmohs. like wadthefuck i did siol.

Moody non-pms Moodswings

S.H.E - 爱来过

我 看不开 也放不开 因为我曾见过 爱情真的盛开
我 要等待 一直等待 等那一个夜晚 从回忆回来
当你拥抱着我 那一瞬间 我象飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落 我不再是我 我有了梦 我在梦中
爱来过 来得那么美 那么凶
欢呼着 从我生命 狠狠碾过
连遗憾 也都不争气的 珍惜成笑容
爱来过 让我完整过 幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走 我不想解脱 我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来 爱我

寂寞喧哗 我不害怕 因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大 会容得下 我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺 我已忘了 那已不重要了
反正我都会守候 在梦中守候 我最唯一 最美的梦
爱来过 来得那么美 那么凶
欢呼着 从我生命 狠狠碾过
连遗憾 也都不争气的 珍惜成笑容
爱来过 让我完整过 幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走 我不想解脱 我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来

如果需要动用奇迹来交换美丽
就让泪蒸发 下成雪花
和我一起在爱中被融化
爱我
爱来过 让我完整过 让我幸福过
等你回来 爱我

recently very hooked on mando-pop oldies. hahaha :D
and out of a sudden, all the lyrics all seem to be relating to me. TSK.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEO HUIQING!


干你拿 the weather these few days machiam wad. rain like hell, sunny like hell, or not windy like hell. if i say i'm not gonna fall sick i'm really trying to fake u.

been very moody these few days. dunno why alil bit of small crappy things can make me so dulan, smallest thing oso can remind me of 熙华 ): 老喜欢发小姐脾气. although i know very 幼稚 but 心里就很不爽 leh but got no outlet, so suay if come and provoke me lor. after that then realise 也真的很累 leh. hahahaha.

说真的讲不伤心是假的
不亏谦也是假的
真的leh!
that一个人游荡在街上的feel是 really他妈的不爽 lor!
每天放工知道没有熙华等我, 有几不欢喜leh!

最近不晓得是怎么搞的,常常都有那种很一个人的感觉
对啦! 从那天慌然大误realised 他真的不会再回头that moment on, 明白after these days 真的得自己一个人了 D:
*sings Jolin's 一个人*

再也没了那上巴士依靠的hardy chest to nap on,
没帮我cross road 的时候看车的人,
没有无时无刻让我发唠骚,
and oso don't have在我做工身病时买药送到工司门口的idoit 了
sibeh saddening lor.

随然有时真的当做所有都是里所当然la
but then 现在要make it up to him 的机oso don't have 了.

sadness aside for alil while now.
yay yay! i seriously can't wait to see baobei nxt week leh! since Jesus Christ knows how long i haven't seen him leh!
muahahahahahaha

The Null Hypothesis

i'm thinking of whether shld i get my navel pierced. or i shld pierce the inner part of my ear :\ i guess mummy wouldn't like me doing piercings anymore. she thinks i've got far more than enough to classify me as AL.

actually, piercing quite addictive leh. i'm putting the idea of getting my tattoos off ): ahlah, u know why la hor.

my mum was damn funny ytd. i was suppose to hang my clothes frm the washing machine while they were out for dinner. yes, i did hang the clothes out.

i text my mum this:
i've hanged the clothes up liao. but nvr hang out cos sky dark like hell, outside windy like hell. i scared ltr rain.

she damn guai lan-ly replied me this:
oh! u can go to hell.

that's my mum for u :\ guai lan to the maximum.


QY says i shldn't reject the null hypothesis. walao! more and more pple are getting blind each day leh! how can i not realise the trend sia. at least i know i'm still not blind lor :D

金凤,金我的头!
欧宣,欧我的屁!
还有我一点也cute不起来好不好!
so pple, stop cheating urself, get a new pair of glasses today.

P/S: u can't get anywhere better if u agree to wad those idiots say :D


i'm really lying through my teeths if i say i'm not getting fat working here D:

i've got double breakfast intake this morning! my all time favourite gu cai kueh frm chirstine and long-long-long-time-nvr-eat-liao de mac pancake with sausage frm gladys :D

still, i think that's gotta do with the fact that i'm still the youngest xiaomei ard now (: mayb being young isn't a bad ting afterall. heh. 早餐真的是吃到胞呗!还有够逊喔!

看吧,没骗你吧!


Labels: i will only dream of u and only u every night.

fuckingleavemealone

M.I.A



P/S: pardon me for not replying texts and picking up call, all dearest friends. well, still do text me for anything urgent tho. replies are not guaranteed. i seriously need a 'leave-me-alone day' so stop texting unless unnecessary.


Label: i made myself super milky and sweet coffee. fuck. it's not even keeping me awake leh. fyi, i add loads of creamer and sweet into my favourite 3in1 coffee. tamade, 3in1 i still add sugar leh. i'm trying to expose myself to diabetes at young age. hohoho