I'm back from RC playing L4D2 with Isaac Chong Qi Ann.
Last year this day, wasn't playing any lan shop games at all. One year later, look back at all that has happened. Look where i was, and look now where am i now. I was going to somewhere, but now i'm going towards nowhere. Great life i have.
I can only conclude i'm a wimp, a weak.
It has been a year. ONE WHOLE FREAKING YEAR.
Going on four month, still not getting my muthdafucking life back.
I'm sick of pretending that it doesn't matter and i'm going on living like i don't give a heck. I'm very bothered and is still heartbroken over my tragic incident, so stop telling me i'm weird or i've changed alot, be it good or bad, i don't wish to hear. Please be a kind soul and redeem yourself from sinning any further, refraining from talking sense into me, or tell me not to think of it cause apparently it's not working. I've given up finding my right life or rather my normal self back again. Be a dear and stand at one corner and let me whine if not lend me your shoulder to cry on, quit telling me to get a life cause he won't come back, i'm waiting for nothing. I know he is not but i simply love deceiving myself, living in the past, hoping for things that i know i can't get and will never get back again, my own will. HAPPY NOW?
Fuck you la, but i still love you. You're an asswiping great harsh impact on my suppose to be dramatic but not going to the wrong direction all the way but now all screwed up life. Thank you very much, love you very much too, LWX.
Will try to blog real soon, when i've more spare time. Been hectic, imma coughing out blood. Literally. No time for anything else 'cept work, L4D, Starbucks, Doodlejump, work, L4D, Starbucks and Doodlejump. tyvm. I'm in great debt ):
Will not treat every twenty-eighth as zheyang's birth day. Super make use substitute max. Sorry Chia, but i still remember your birthday. October baby freak you ass.
