Stress

I'm back from RC playing L4D2 with Isaac Chong Qi Ann.

Last year this day, wasn't playing any lan shop games at all. One year later, look back at all that has happened. Look where i was, and look now where am i now. I was going to somewhere, but now i'm going towards nowhere. Great life i have.
I can only conclude i'm a wimp, a weak.

It has been a year. ONE WHOLE FREAKING YEAR.
Going on four month, still not getting my muthdafucking life back.

I'm sick of pretending that it doesn't matter and i'm going on living like i don't give a heck. I'm very bothered and is still heartbroken over my tragic incident, so stop telling me i'm weird or i've changed alot, be it good or bad, i don't wish to hear. Please be a kind soul and redeem yourself from sinning any further, refraining from talking sense into me, or tell me not to think of it cause apparently it's not working. I've given up finding my right life or rather my normal self back again. Be a dear and stand at one corner and let me whine if not lend me your shoulder to cry on, quit telling me to get a life cause he won't come back, i'm waiting for nothing. I know he is not but i simply love deceiving myself, living in the past, hoping for things that i know i can't get and will never get back again, my own will. HAPPY NOW?

Fuck you la, but i still love you. You're an asswiping great harsh impact on my suppose to be dramatic but not going to the wrong direction all the way but now all screwed up life. Thank you very much, love you very much too, LWX.

Will try to blog real soon, when i've more spare time. Been hectic, imma coughing out blood. Literally. No time for anything else 'cept work, L4D, Starbucks, Doodlejump, work, L4D, Starbucks and Doodlejump. tyvm. I'm in great debt ):

Will not treat every twenty-eighth as zheyang's birth day. Super make use substitute max. Sorry Chia, but i still remember your birthday. October baby freak you ass.

Revitalize, Rejuvenate

Went on a lifetime traumatising outing with Brenda, Nicole, Veron, another elephantine colleague and her punk poser kooky brother. If it wasn't for zy, i would have killed myself after lunch. Thank you, thank you! I owe u once, big time.

They invigorated my childhood memories again, they make me feel like i'm 16 again. Three of us bought the Arcadia card and played Mario Go Kart and DDR.

Bought URBANZ VIBE, aka my chio strawberry chocolate cheesecake headphones, from iluma ytd. After my very first headphones my dad bought for me 7 years ago, this is my second pair.



Maybe some other time in the future when i have more money, i should invest my money on a pair of Beats Solo. And customize them in red.

I watched Sherlock Holmes again, since i missed out like the first fifteen mintues the previous time and Brenda wanted to watch it. And hell, the three FUSOs took last bus home, mentally dead.

Late Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone!

I know i'm late. Have been working and going out lately, thus not touching the com at all. Work has been a bitch. I'm expected to work but not being paid on time. Apparently this time, i'm not the only one facing this turf unfair treatment. Oh well, i found 70bux near the rubbish while smoking yesterday, so lucky me.

24/12: Pretty last mintue decision, watched Sherlock Holmes with Jessie, Zheyang and a unknown-but-realtively-pissed-off-friend.



Was much much nicer than expected, the whole story twist and effects were both thumbs up. All the scenes are so chio lao sai. I wanna go London too!

So happy, got many many Christmas wishes. LWX hit my phone at 12mn sharp okay! Mayb this year there are more mobile plans with unlimited smses and more phones with the 'mark-all-and-send' functions, i got way more unexpected wishes.


25/12:


Poor me had to work during christmas ): But still i had christmas dinner with Jessie. Black pepper chicken, mash potato, Mac n Cheese and mushroom soup. OMFG noommmmms! First time spending Christmas at home whipping up dinner, so heartwarming! (:


26/12: Avatar with zy after work.



So much for the overly rated ratings, i think it was just an average good movie. Throughout the whole movie, i was thinking about having my own avatar. Then i can ride ding dong horses, fly pet bird monsters, climb floating mountains, slp with glow in the dark plants, make bonds with tress and worship Enwa. Most of all, my mated partner would be with me forever, no scandalous affair or change of heart what turf. Did u notice all the natives all had good figure? No fat blue naked huge crownass at all! No worries about being fat and i will have supa long hair! HAHAHA. Secretly, i think there's a hidden message behind the movie and the script was written by an ecologist.

And this time zy didn't even take his phone out to text at all during the movie! :D poor him, i could see that he was tired but was still pulled out by his stubborn friend. Sorry!

happy bird

Had a formidable birthday this year. Nope, i didn't do anything on the 12th, all thanks to whoever. No make up or belated or what shit, i regret chiong-ing to buy your stupid cake now. But yes, i celebrated it without clubbing or drinking. I did it the 'normal-people-way', which is had eating to my heart's fill and some catching up. As much as i find it a crap excuse to wear a dress, but i still wore one in the end. I WORE A DRESS! haha.

checkered with handwritten card from ♥Jess


jumbo Pluto plush frm ♥Weiyi
(it's much bigger than the pink rabbit)


Definately a very unforgettable birthday ending with a slice of mango cake from zheyang. Major love for Abdul Zheyang and his slice of cake with a candle we couldn't light. Haha.

the ♥ mango cake which shocked me TTM



Thank you to those who sent your lovely wishes via text, fb, twitter. And of course the your other lovely presents. Didn't take photos la, was alrdy feeling lazy to blog all this out.
anyways, LOVE YOU ALL TTM (:


AND! What's with everyone and their POPs, block leave and recee course. Dang! I just got to knw i have friends from 1 and 3Guards ): i can never forget how much i used to detest going all the way back from bedok but i'm actually missing it now. FML. Side note, pple riding Kawasaki shld stop using the red Fiat paintwork! CCB. Use blue or other weird colours, i don't care. Stop scaring the shit of me. Nearly killed at traffic junctions innumerable times alrdy.

Lagi potong steam. Going back to zzz nao! Bye.