I Wonder Sometimes..

reading blogs kinda make me realised being caught in my situation is like no big deal. everyone seems relate vice versa their plights and joys in one way or another.
be it caught in whatever situation, it's how we look and cope with it. facing it or running away.

well, came across alice's blog while blog hopping. one of her july's post, mentions abt her dad. yes yes, smoking, hospitalised kind of stuff.
not that i'm trying to act like any saint preaching pple, nagging at them to quit it when i myself smoke too. my smoking? it ought to stop, i know.
it's that guilty feeling that creeps to me everytime i light that stick up, thinking back those times i was asking so-and-so to gradually cut dwn.

i feel especially guilty towards ay. i've been so naggy, asking him to cut dwn and all but i started lighting up those horrible killa sticks instead one day after. each day, i increase the amount of burnt butts. he used to be my 'smoking kaki' last time, but now i don't even dare to smoke infront of him :\
i've stop myself frm buying a new pack. hopefully, the nicotine craving will just stop bugging me.

whoo yes. alice also mentioned abt spitting foul language. i'm truly guilty of that, hokkien, teochew, english, chinese whatever. bad habits die hard though, another of my excuses i know. i'll try my ultimately best. trust me, i'm controling.

coming back, it's another MONDAY-BLUES monday ): that swollen toe of mine has gotten even swollen-er after since gladys washed it with saline and pasted some iodine pad on it finally bandaging up with gauze. i'm not saying that it's her fault la! all bcos of her, now at least i know how to wash my wound better. rather than washing it with water, dry it then jus leave it.
i'm making such a big bo-bo bcos of one swollen toe my mine. hahaha. deiciding whether to go to the doctor's and blah, i kept roy and gladys occupied. hohoho. mw nearly screamed at me abt it. yeah yeah. feedback of the picture is overwhleming, mostly, through my phone. sry pple, i know it's affecting ur appetite for breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper, whatever.


my wonderful sunday findings that made me smiled :D


seriously leh. GuyLian's chocolate is always no.1, apart frm Godiva that is.

i found 3 full packs in the fridge, whoever the chocolate belongs to la :D heh. i have yet to try the orange flavoured one. but so far, parline is still the best. plus, it comes in a red wrapper. hahahah. strawberry sucks, but the wrapper is cool though. share my joy, and get urself a pack people!
P/S: seriously, i have no idea wherethehell those little surprises came frm, so don't ask.


enough whinning. i'm starting to sneeze and cough now. mus be shuihui's virus ):


Labels: xiaomei only has 9 toes that can laugh now ): tsktsk. be sad for her.

Friday August 8: it's 080808. shuhui's last day. towned for our very first dinner tog (: cine for Shokudo. i chao geng student price again! hahaha. bo bian, i look kiddish mah :D

fengjie's avocado and salmon pasta


fengjie and her 'cross-the-road-safely'. hahahah.
went fareast for my hair cut. chilled at Coffee Bean ((: i loveeee Pure Chocolate laa! crapped abt colleagues, blah blah. had hella laughs.

trained back and i couldn't stop laughing at this bangala:


c'mmon la. he left his super big price tag and label on it leh! i mean if u wanna use ur newly bought bag frm Mustafa, cut off the label la. tsk! i know i'm being mean, but i couldn't stiffle my giggles well.


Saturday August 9: it's the nation's birthday, i know. it's oso the day that weiyi pangseh me lo. she's sucha donkeyhole. went for F.I.R's concert with nicholas on friday, couldn't come out today lo.
ended up cycling with girlfriend and dan. simi sai. if i knew i was going to fall, and this badly, i would haf stayed at hme and watch my vball Olympics at hme.
ROARS!
at least i managed to limp frm blk 5 to market for dinner then back hme again lo.
heng si nvr cycle to west coast. if not i tink i'll die lying half way the journey there. HAHAHA! :D

my rotten leg. LOLOLOL


er xin abrasion, skin dangling out :\


hahaha. was talking on the phone with chunchiet. damn funny. i kept descrbing my wound to him. suppose he got kinda freaked out luh, asked me to stop. anw, he don't sound like himself through the phone :\ much more manly, i think. heh.

sry guy, i didn't go to the doctor's. i bo ji la. imagine applying medication on it. walao. super high to MAX.


Sunday August 10: apparently, i buay kia si. still went out without bandaging my rotting wound. hey, i was starved to death, aching all over cos i couldn't slp in a nice position. and i had to wake up every now and then jus to wipe and clean the stupid plasma off, preventing it frm staining my sheets lo.
bused to je. tried disguising myself wearing my cap out, i can't make my toe wear the cap wad! and i failed. apparently, some toooku frm css recognise me the min i alighted. and it was some toooku i don't even think i've seen before. told jianhong la. now two more person knows abt my fugly toe.
dad wasn't in a good mood when i reached hme. got told off cos i was talking on the phone. simi sai. i've promised mum i won't bicker back, therefore, i was a good girl that night.

and still i haven't unlock loads of gears and notes for my djmax. i wan that ruby gear and the crystal note. chiong-ing gold for my mysticforest gear, method gear and cyrstone note ):
in short, i'm still a djmax noob. bohohoho.

Treasure

ytd shld be my happy-day-of-the-week i guess. it's finally payday :D yayhey!
wc mac with shuhui, jas and that new HR guy, gladys's treat (: overall, noisy lunch.
talking abt hongkong, my year end trip haf to be pushed back ): no more shopping spree.

slack at 411 with chunchiet, hsihhwa and kaijun. saw that whatever vanessa :\ i was so 'IMPRESSED'. that woman definitely jus ran out frm siao lang keng.
talked loadsa cock with chunchiet, and it adds more disappointment, chunchiet was one kind soul. both of us were like praying real hard we get the F1 tix lo. hahahah :D
mayb i shld tell chunchiet this:
Smoking causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.
HAHAHAH! like i was the one who ask him to get the ciggs lo. it was for the sake of F1 leh!
weihao came over, slack then bused dwn to west coast. watched ge tai with zi peng. how suay la. it started pouring real heavily when mark lee and jeck neo started singing their Money Not Enough 2 ost. hahaha 2/3 of the crowd went in for shelter. LOLOLOL!
dinner, talking cock, imagining ourselves as bill gates. HAHAHA! bused hme. slpt at 12 :D at least i know i wouldn't be waking up in the middle of the night.
and luckily weihao was there to walk me hme, qi yue leh! i'm pan tang mah! heh.

today's shuhui offical last dayyyyyy ):):):):):): having last farewell dinner. valentina left ytd cos her leg was swollen. ohmytian, poor girl.

and like yay! tmr's National Day alrdy! and every sch is celebrating now while i'm pathetically stucked in my COSY CORNER D: nvm, at least i'm going out with weiyi tmr for some fireworks (: she and her "i cry luhh". HAHAHAHA. i miss her like abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.


me and sam were msn-ing a few days back. sugguesting i shld blog abt my happy food and happy drink so some stalker would read it and buy me them everyday. and sam say i'll be fat lo! how annoying. BAAHHH!
speaking of happy food, i haven't thought abt it yet. happy drink. hmm. it's not really a happy drink la, but more of a craving kind. hahaha. Coffee Bean's pure chocolate! :D:D all sam's steamed vanilla milk's fault lo!

was reading sam's blog.
this gave me hell loads to think abt the whole day, prolly even the whole week D:

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...
if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own........
when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of
rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid...
afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think,
afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

*What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all
of my family and they know I love them?*

see? i'm starting to stress for nth again. i know it's sinful to start smoking again, i jus can't help it, but i know i can stop it.




ay told me he bought this:


i tink it's uber cute leh! 70cm longggg. hohoho. longer/taller than my baby amelia, bigger than his live dog, butter (i guess la) :\ someone buy it for me, please?
he says he need to buy clothes for his new dog, so it won't be molested. DOINK!

& oh my holy shit. why la, why am i even upset by that he's ignoring me.
for a total fact that i'm sick having a sorethroat, and he's perfectly fine abt it. now, he's the best man in the world, NOT.
now, i must try my utter best to get rid of this awful moody mood and force myself to speak normally cos i know shuhui won't let me have my CB's PC if my sorethroat is not well ): nvm. if i insist on it, nothing's gonna stop me frm getting it. no, NOT EVEN FENGJIE :O

Labels: i foresee an awful week ahead. Sentosa or Coffee Bean anyone? i need a breather ): i admit i'm overly stressed over things that i'm not suppose be stressing.

Pray For Me

Monday July 28: mandai. solemn affair but on the positive side, most of the PPS 6a got to meet up again :D bused back AMKhub for lunch. as usual la, stucked with the guys. weihao, zan nian and lih wei. hahaha. had so much fun squirting lime juice at each other. trained and bused to NP. slpt in weihao's spare room while waiting for ym to finish his project D:
canteen for bubbletea, chilled at OurSpace, toured SIM's carpark, bused dwn je for dinner, bused hme. throughout, he's like so into maxing my 4Bs luh :\ djmax siao.
this djmax siao said i shld wear lok kok lok kok to sch. lok kok as in berms, singlet, jacket, slippers and no bag. how can i live without a bag?! i don't wear berms often leh!

OurSpace. he's really lok kok. buay tahan him la.



Tuesday July 29: second day off from work. bused dwn SIM. ym came over. how sweet right (: met breasty and kenneth. bubbletea, bused dwn batok. was damn suay. my oreo choco blended jus slipped frm my hands on my first step out of sch.
!@#~%&#@! and it was suppose to keep me cool frm the scorching sun laa. shi suay dao~
breasty and me were djmaxing on the bus trip. hahaha. he's damn pro! bring dwn all my stats! it's 104W 38L ): BAAAHHHH! half of my lose were contributed to breasty's winning stats leh. how er xin :\
waited for jolyn. breasty and kenneth bused dwn to BBDC. trimed my brows, finally! mos lunch, trained dwn je. maybank, pooling, bubbletea, homesweethome :D


Wednesday July 30: out til evening with mummy.

saw 403 guy on the bus hme. luckily was alone luh. hur hur.



Friday August 1: suppose to be shuhui's last day. she extended a week later which means she'll be leaving with valentina D: two temp staff lesser ):
she's such a darling. made us farewell cards and printed out our photos.


Sunday August 3: stuck my lazy butt out for jer's sake :\ abit buay shiok but wad to do? promised him ler. weather was hella killer ): lib was crowded, mac was packed, even imm was squeezy. tamade, i jus hate going out on 'heaty' weekends.
met gf, yuhua mac for dinner, slack and rot. waited for ym to come frm Sunshine. hahaha. my happiest day of the week, cos it was a good hair day (: hohoho.

see, it's a good hair day.





wad will i do without her? she rocks my stinko socks yo (:




ym sent me all the way to sch's bustop though his shoes were giving him hell loads of problem. laughs. he's one of biggest crap living.


Tuesday August 4: slacked at blk 8 with mengwee. LOLOL. both of our plight are the same la! pathetically-stressed-out-people-with-sleep-deprivation. hohoho.

we were randomly picking up articles left behind la. and we saw this:



and mengwee was saying, "no hope la!". personally, i agree la.


& still, pay is not in!

My Mid-life Crisis

things jus came crashing down at one puff. it all made me realised alot.
grateful i am to have supporting friends, colleagues (:
many many thanks to u-know-who-u-are.
life turned up right again knowing u're all jus a call or a text away.


someone told me, crossing this very big hurdle, i'll be stronger.
i feel so much better now.

P/S: (: i smiled for the first time seeing the text. thank you