Stress

I'm back from RC playing L4D2 with Isaac Chong Qi Ann.

Last year this day, wasn't playing any lan shop games at all. One year later, look back at all that has happened. Look where i was, and look now where am i now. I was going to somewhere, but now i'm going towards nowhere. Great life i have.
I can only conclude i'm a wimp, a weak.

It has been a year. ONE WHOLE FREAKING YEAR.
Going on four month, still not getting my muthdafucking life back.

I'm sick of pretending that it doesn't matter and i'm going on living like i don't give a heck. I'm very bothered and is still heartbroken over my tragic incident, so stop telling me i'm weird or i've changed alot, be it good or bad, i don't wish to hear. Please be a kind soul and redeem yourself from sinning any further, refraining from talking sense into me, or tell me not to think of it cause apparently it's not working. I've given up finding my right life or rather my normal self back again. Be a dear and stand at one corner and let me whine if not lend me your shoulder to cry on, quit telling me to get a life cause he won't come back, i'm waiting for nothing. I know he is not but i simply love deceiving myself, living in the past, hoping for things that i know i can't get and will never get back again, my own will. HAPPY NOW?

Fuck you la, but i still love you. You're an asswiping great harsh impact on my suppose to be dramatic but not going to the wrong direction all the way but now all screwed up life. Thank you very much, love you very much too, LWX.

Will try to blog real soon, when i've more spare time. Been hectic, imma coughing out blood. Literally. No time for anything else 'cept work, L4D, Starbucks, Doodlejump, work, L4D, Starbucks and Doodlejump. tyvm. I'm in great debt ):

Will not treat every twenty-eighth as zheyang's birth day. Super make use substitute max. Sorry Chia, but i still remember your birthday. October baby freak you ass.

once again.

♥
I better grab hold of what i still have now,
let go of what has already been lost.

Face it. I bawled my eyes.
Stupid song speaks so much for me.



Time to pack up my emotions and deal the upcoming weekend properly.
Three months has been long gone.
Please, i can do it. I really can, i think.

nocturnal beast

Who told you one is enough?


Crashed Coffeebean with Brenda at WCP.
Then Holland V for Starbucks chill.

Fml. Can't get enough of it.
So much caffeine, imma turning into a nocturnal beast soon.


Still can't get Babybo out this terrible nightmare.
Whycantisufferalone.knnf.

My sweet tooth, your funny bone

Met terence for dinner at Ma Maison. Me tummy was already shouting for food way before ordering. Only a vegetarian zheyang can work with the aroma and not get hungry.

My curry rice with chicken culet


Terence's large hamburger steak


Lightings over dinner time was contributed mostly from candles and dim orangey light, nice ambiance but supa lousy quality photos, blame it on iPhone. Not bad food, will go back some time again but probably over lunchtime.

After dinner, daily dose of coffee :D


hello, we are a bunch of Apple product freaks. We spam iPhone and iTouch games all the way through. Apple makes us happy people, tyvm.




I refuse to say this, but i'm already 19 years and exact 1 month today. Fml.

Caffeine Enslavement

Been craving for coffee and chocolate pretty much recently. Without the daily dose, i fidget and i feel restless. Depite still coughing, it didn't stop me from cutting down on the sinful drinks. Curiously, i googled if cocoa was even addictive.

Chocolate contains cannabinoid, this particular chemical produces euphoria caused by marijuana use. Theoretically a person can get a high after chocolate eating, but he/she must eat more than 10 kilos of this product to achieve it. They define chocoholia as a condition when a person feels a lack of control around chocolate and chocolate endorphins that change our mood for better.

Read it for yourself here.

I was born a fan of chocolate, but i'm now a slave of it. Hooked onto it like some drug addict. Digged. Unfortunate for my pockets, now i'm not only working for school fees, part of the money goes to coffee chillazx sessions. Great. Am really looking forward to tuesday for more The Soup Spoon, Starbucks and cheesecake. And of course, this weekend for i don't know what is planned. What a wonderful week this is.


8/1: Had my virgin taste of The Soup Spoon. Definitely going back there and try out all of the soups. They serve orgasmic rad soup and smoked salmon sandwich, total worth the bucks.




9/1: Touring around singapore on foot.





We even attempted doing the jump shots at the rooftop garden.
starting the most successful shot,




to the totally failed one.


I ended my day with a cup of Double Chocolate from Coffeebean, as usual, and i super long talk with Brenda. Feels so good, laughing after so long.